Dec 15, 2004 18:54
I haven't updated in fifty seven point twelve three years cuz like I dont have time. But today i do, cuz im sick, with the flu and my head and my stomach muscles and my nuts and my neck and my shoulders and everything aches. Yeah. I missed the second half of my math midterm. I did awful on the first half. Like you have no frickin clue. I totally blanked out. Ashley leaves sunday afternoon, pretty bummed out i dont get to see her tonight at church. Actually i woulda been running sound for the choir deal at the yacht club tonight, but since im sick, they wouldnt let me. Mrs. Jeanette is so nice. Anyway that's where my family is. I'm so hungry, I want some chinese food. Nothing hot though. My grades suck. I'm gonna have a c in history and science. That's a major bummer. Like seriously degrading, especially since im trying. I've never put forth this much effort in school and it doesnt seem to be helping any. Like it really upsets me. Kind of a wake up call, "Hey Jacob, you're not as smart as you think you are, you can overload yourself, it's okay, you just needa cut out some other stuff." Actually what i really wanna do is go home and go to school mornings and take my one or two classes i need to have all my credits and spend the rest of the day up at the union hall learning to be an electrician. And then i'll be equipped to provide for ashley and the baby while she finishes her last year of school. And then later i can take correspondence courses or go to seminary to a degree to be a youth minister. And I can make lots and lots of babies and eventually move to mississippi to grow cows and own my own electrician business when i get old, cuz they wont want an old guy youth minister. yup yup. We also talked about me going to tennessee with her family and living with them and doing the same thing until i graduate and considered my grandparents too. So i dunno. I'm gonna work something out. I'll die with her that far away, even if she did come visit every other weekend. I wouldn't want to endure that. I love them so much. Chloe cries to go home with me in the van sometimes. She ran to it the other night and was pullin on the door handle. Yeah im such a ladies man in my white minivan. Everyone picks on me say i can push from 0 to 60 in three weeks. Yessir, my minivan is a badass. I gotta write up a science lab, tomorrow is the last day to turn in redos and its gotta be before 8 am on the dot. If i get an a on it that could possibly pull my grade up to a b that and making a high b on my test i took monday. Doubt thats gonna happen but hey a little wishful thinking never hurt did it? I just dug myself in too deep into too much this semester. Well, im starving to death. I'm gonna go scrounge me up some eats. Hope everyone is doing well and coping alright with the frickin cold weather, i watched the weather channel this morning, pretty exciting. Laterness folks.