The same old story...
It's been almost 2 months since my last entry. That's crazy. I've been so busy with school. This semester is completely draining me. I find that funny because I feel more drained this semester than last, and I'm not even working now. I find myself over school right now. I'm tired. There's too much going on with my family right now with my grandfather's passing, and health problems with other family members, that it's hard for me to put 100% focus into school, and I hate that. I'm already behind, and I should have a degree by now, and I hate that I'm losing focus. I'm really lost again. I love geology, but I don't feel like I'm very good at it, and I just can't retain the information like I would like to. I know I can do anything I put my mind to, but my mind is all over the place right now, and I just need to FOCUS. I have a month and a half left to get my grades in check. It's going to be a lot of work, but I'm willing to do it.
Nothing really makes me happy anymore though. And when my emotions are down, so are my grades. My emotions effect every aspect of my life, and I hate that about myself. I just want to be happy. Is that too much to ask?
I'm sick of me. I want a new me.
I was going to take a summer class, but I decided this week, that I am going to take the summer off to just find myself, and find out what I want, because I don't feel like I know it quite yet. I plan to travel, but I don't know where yet. I just need to get away. I really want to get away right now, but I can't.
Save me. Someone.
Nothing really makes me happy anymore though. And when my emotions are down, so are my grades. My emotions effect every aspect of my life, and I hate that about myself. I just want to be happy. Is that too much to ask?
I'm sick of me. I want a new me.
I was going to take a summer class, but I decided this week, that I am going to take the summer off to just find myself, and find out what I want, because I don't feel like I know it quite yet. I plan to travel, but I don't know where yet. I just need to get away. I really want to get away right now, but I can't.
Save me. Someone.