Guess who's back?
ME! :) Just feel like I should start writing in here a bit again because I have a lot of emotions I need to let loose. Lately I've been really hard on myself. It's that loneliness factor taking over, and although I have lost a lot of weight, I am still not happy with where I am, and every day I consider not eating and I know that's bad. Some times I just feel like there is no other alternative. I eat less, but there is no change. I've changed my diet. I exercise. I don't know. I give up. It's more of, I wont be happy until I am loved by HIM. I feel like boys only want girls who weigh 2 lbs, and I know that's not true, but to a certain extent it is. Looking at myself makes me want to throw up. Maybe I'll be bulemic. That's gross. I hate throwing up even when I'm sick. I'm just going to eat cereal the rest of my life. Maybe that will make me lose 40 more lbs.
argh ugh omg bbq.
I know this is sad. It's not happy kelly like everyone knows. I'm just worn out, and want a boy that probably doesn't want me.
fuck. me.
argh ugh omg bbq.
I know this is sad. It's not happy kelly like everyone knows. I'm just worn out, and want a boy that probably doesn't want me.
fuck. me.