hmmm bored and hungry
yeah so today was really boring, i just played the sims the whole time. virginias b day is on friday i have no idea what to get her. we are getting better at getting along which is pretty cool. i just smoked a lil bit of a cig i feel better now. i LOVE the way they taste man...i used to hate it but now i freakin love it. i started a dream journal this morning, im hoping to discover somthing new about myself. ill prolly just start writing my dreams in here when i get up in the morning, that way anyone who is reading this can know my dreams too. so yeah. ashley got online earlier, but for some reason i was in a really pissy mood with her. actually i know why. she thinks she can tell me who i am, and in reality she dont even know who i am. she tells me im a lesbian, and when i say no im not, she says mhmm sure, think about it cinnamon...and i HAVE thought about it, A FUCKING LOT...and im not a fucking lesbian. it pisses me off when she says shit like that, or tells me who i am and what i want...lke everytime i say fuck you...i MEAN it...she just takes it as a flirty joke and says i know u wanna, or please. ass. but whatever..i got onto her about it, and she actually apologized. so..i CAN stand up for myself...wow i learned something new about myself and my relatiopnships today...yay for me. i guess im just scared that everything i do or say will effect everyones thoughts and judgments toward me....but if i dont stand up for myself then im letting them think thats who i am....and its not...so for everyone to know who i am, i have to show them....WOW im so fucking proud of myself right now....fucking yes man i fucking rock...lol. ok well i g2g im makin macaroni and cheese and its almost ready...later.