i've been searching for myself through other people's eyes.

[jacksbrknheart]

"...i'm sorry that i let you down. you know just how i feel tonight. this is everything i wanted. to be searching for yourself, in other people's eyes."

i need everything to go the fuck away. i need to be left alone. just be placed in a windowless room with nothing but a mattress and just lay there for days.
what the fuck am i going to do?