carried away

[jackrational]

you are a listener
of the first order
and i'm sorry if
what you hear
is sometimes awkward
but you know me
and that is the point
i like the honesty
but i hate
what i reveal
of how i feel
about myself
like i'm seeking praise
or giving people an
opportunity to tell me
it isn't so
it's just that sometimes
i feel like
i don't belong here
that the things
i was built to seek
aren't here to find
my heart gets carried away
inching closer
towards something happening
which must not
and if i sometimes struggle
i hope you understand