things to say
sigh...you can say the totally wrong thing to someone. but its said when its said, no matter the difference. people dont get that. or they do its just unrealized on their part. i say things a lot i dont mean in the way they are taken. but thats how they are taken. i dont know what im supposed to do a lot of the times so i just go with it. sometimes thats the best way to go about things.
but that eventually leads to dead ends. you can go on and on and have that smile...but its just a voided door...not real...doesnt exist. you can be so high in the sky and have your world ripped from under you by a few words that shouldnt, but do. you cant explain where the emotion comes from. it just exists, formed before you came into existence, and experienced by many before i leave my mark and im sure after i leave this plane. you can only go so far and hear that same thing emphasized over in your head before you actually start believing it, no matter what it is. something, a little seed perhaps, anything spreads fear and doubt about anything. and when that exists, even the smallest grain of glass can kill the largest animal.
its that simple.
the easy way cant be taken out every time. even though valid reasons are there for wanting to take an easy way from an extremely long and dangerous path, it affects everyone youve come into contact with. it changes the way of things, life cant reassert itself (in my opinion) the way it was before a life changing event comes to a cataclysmic conclusion. sometimes you recover, but not to the strength you were before. many times you dont. and its the past that haunts you, no matter how hard you try and move on. your decisions affect you and those around you, no matter what the cost. a simple "yes" and a simple "no" suffice for some people, but no one lives in a black and white world. the grey does exist. you have to weigh every possible outcome and not be afraid of the consequence.
and one of those lifechanging moments shall come to pass. and i dont know what to do. it scares me to the core. it brings tears to my eyes. i cant sleep at night. i dont know what to say. i know what would be easy, but easy for when, easy for now? what about later. this is my life. you can just go for the "now". i always was like that. in the past. before i met the person who showed me that there was more to life than just...nothing. showed me life and love and laughter and that you can be cared for in ways that you cant fathom. can make me so happy it doesnt matter what im doing just that im near him...can make me cry and still have me smiling on the inside, have me look inside of myself and realize, hey...youre jack. thats what i care about and nothing more. and that to me is so much more...more than anything ive ever encountered. i hear things all the time that make me just double over inside that rip me up. but i smile. i close my eyes. i know what i see i know what i want i know what this means to me and i can get through it. you (I goddammit) cant just worry about the now anymore. theres so much more to my life now than just me. i didnt give a fuck about anyone or anything in the past. but i do now. and with that comes new outlooks. i cant just be all about jack. you have to worry about the "later" and the "what if this, what if that" you cant just say "oh well this will work now. well worry about the rest later". you have to analyze the outcomes, especially if there are more than one.
no matter the cost of the heartache and the pain. its something ive gotten used to by now. life is so full of that. im beginning to dislike it.
but i cant help to feel..naw that doesnt need to be put here. thats gonna stay a private thought. i just cant help but to feel lost. its strange to say. but i do. unsure of what to do is one of the worst feelings in the world. you can only be wrong so many times before you are right...
and you can only be right so many times before youre completely, absolutely wrong.
"Kiss Me Fool"
Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Tell me what does it mean to be alone?
Can't you see me standing staring out from the distance,
Hear my cry if you'd only listen...
Out of focus, into me and you
Kiss me fool, if you care
If your words have any meaning.
Playing it cool is so unfair
Why this veil of secrecy?
God forbid, your friends found out what we did
Why can't someone like you be someone like me?
Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Tell me what does it mean to be alone?
Can't you see me standing staring out from the distance,
Hear my cry if you'd only listen...
Out of focus, into me and you
Touch me fool, if your allowed.
I'll be dancing in the corner
It's so cruel to play it proud, take your hands and cover me.
I'm aware that all in love is fair, but that's no reason to make me feel this way.
Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Tell me what does it mean to be alone?
Can't you see me standing staring out from the distance,
Hear my cry if you'd only listen...
Out of focus, into me and you
And it hurts me so bad to deny it, oooh
These feelings are out of control.
Do you know what it's like to want something so bad...
And then having to let it go?
And it hurts me to know that this time in our lives...
So soon will be in the past
And you spend it pretending your playing it cool.
Never knowing,
Never knowing,
Never knowing what,
Never knowing what we should've been.
Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Tell me what does it mean to be alone?
You've got me wondering if I'm good enough.
Pretty enough, giving enough, special enough
Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Who should I be? Who should I be? Ooooh...
To make you love me?
Who should I be? Who should I be? Ooooh...
To make you love me?
Who should I be? Who should I be? Ooooh...
To make you love me.........?
but that eventually leads to dead ends. you can go on and on and have that smile...but its just a voided door...not real...doesnt exist. you can be so high in the sky and have your world ripped from under you by a few words that shouldnt, but do. you cant explain where the emotion comes from. it just exists, formed before you came into existence, and experienced by many before i leave my mark and im sure after i leave this plane. you can only go so far and hear that same thing emphasized over in your head before you actually start believing it, no matter what it is. something, a little seed perhaps, anything spreads fear and doubt about anything. and when that exists, even the smallest grain of glass can kill the largest animal.
its that simple.
the easy way cant be taken out every time. even though valid reasons are there for wanting to take an easy way from an extremely long and dangerous path, it affects everyone youve come into contact with. it changes the way of things, life cant reassert itself (in my opinion) the way it was before a life changing event comes to a cataclysmic conclusion. sometimes you recover, but not to the strength you were before. many times you dont. and its the past that haunts you, no matter how hard you try and move on. your decisions affect you and those around you, no matter what the cost. a simple "yes" and a simple "no" suffice for some people, but no one lives in a black and white world. the grey does exist. you have to weigh every possible outcome and not be afraid of the consequence.
and one of those lifechanging moments shall come to pass. and i dont know what to do. it scares me to the core. it brings tears to my eyes. i cant sleep at night. i dont know what to say. i know what would be easy, but easy for when, easy for now? what about later. this is my life. you can just go for the "now". i always was like that. in the past. before i met the person who showed me that there was more to life than just...nothing. showed me life and love and laughter and that you can be cared for in ways that you cant fathom. can make me so happy it doesnt matter what im doing just that im near him...can make me cry and still have me smiling on the inside, have me look inside of myself and realize, hey...youre jack. thats what i care about and nothing more. and that to me is so much more...more than anything ive ever encountered. i hear things all the time that make me just double over inside that rip me up. but i smile. i close my eyes. i know what i see i know what i want i know what this means to me and i can get through it. you (I goddammit) cant just worry about the now anymore. theres so much more to my life now than just me. i didnt give a fuck about anyone or anything in the past. but i do now. and with that comes new outlooks. i cant just be all about jack. you have to worry about the "later" and the "what if this, what if that" you cant just say "oh well this will work now. well worry about the rest later". you have to analyze the outcomes, especially if there are more than one.
no matter the cost of the heartache and the pain. its something ive gotten used to by now. life is so full of that. im beginning to dislike it.
but i cant help to feel..naw that doesnt need to be put here. thats gonna stay a private thought. i just cant help but to feel lost. its strange to say. but i do. unsure of what to do is one of the worst feelings in the world. you can only be wrong so many times before you are right...
and you can only be right so many times before youre completely, absolutely wrong.
"Kiss Me Fool"
Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Tell me what does it mean to be alone?
Can't you see me standing staring out from the distance,
Hear my cry if you'd only listen...
Out of focus, into me and you
Kiss me fool, if you care
If your words have any meaning.
Playing it cool is so unfair
Why this veil of secrecy?
God forbid, your friends found out what we did
Why can't someone like you be someone like me?
Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Tell me what does it mean to be alone?
Can't you see me standing staring out from the distance,
Hear my cry if you'd only listen...
Out of focus, into me and you
Touch me fool, if your allowed.
I'll be dancing in the corner
It's so cruel to play it proud, take your hands and cover me.
I'm aware that all in love is fair, but that's no reason to make me feel this way.
Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Tell me what does it mean to be alone?
Can't you see me standing staring out from the distance,
Hear my cry if you'd only listen...
Out of focus, into me and you
And it hurts me so bad to deny it, oooh
These feelings are out of control.
Do you know what it's like to want something so bad...
And then having to let it go?
And it hurts me to know that this time in our lives...
So soon will be in the past
And you spend it pretending your playing it cool.
Never knowing,
Never knowing,
Never knowing what,
Never knowing what we should've been.
Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Tell me what does it mean to be alone?
You've got me wondering if I'm good enough.
Pretty enough, giving enough, special enough
Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Who should I be? Who should I be? Ooooh...
To make you love me?
Who should I be? Who should I be? Ooooh...
To make you love me?
Who should I be? Who should I be? Ooooh...
To make you love me.........?