Aug 21, 2005 00:17
I'm really not sure what it is that I feel these days... I'm lonely, yet it seems I have more human contact in one of them then I did my entire 6th grade. I'm neither sad nor happy... just sort of living. Proceeding. Upholding. Staying. Being.
I would really like a girlfriend. Now, I don't mean just dating someone... that's fun, but it's nothing like having someone who you trust and give to without expecting anything in return. I guess I just need to meet the right girl.... fat chance of that though; it seems I'm attracted to the beautiful, smart and not all that interested in having a boyfriend group.
I'm quitting my job... and that's cool. I see nothing wrong in ditching a job that really wasn't doing anything for me in the first place. All that money saved up for a car that wasn't even gonna happen... hmph. Waste of time that could have been spent with my friends.
Who I need to see more of... it'll be lovely to have my weekends back to myself again. That also means... Lan parties... YES! I fully intend on bringing it back. We've gone on for too long without one.
Coldplay and Rile o' Kiley in September? Cool no? I think I'm gonna go... I mean, I don't particularly like either of them, but it should be fun with Cheryl and whoever else goes. And the talking leads to touching...
It's weird that my sister is a freshman now... her friends are also freshman... which means that I see them at school. Bleck. I like attention... but from girls my own age. Otherwise it's just uncomfortable. Seriously, when I was freshman they were in 5th grade for heaven's sake.
-Adam