long time no post!

[jackofhearts82]

I havnt posted in a long time because iv been disgusted in myself. I havnt had interest in really anything lately except gorging myself on things like foood drinking..smoking. This is a plea to myself to get better. I have never been so depressed in my life. I wake up every day hating the morning and putting on the baggiest clothes possible not even looking at my reflection and just stumble out of the house. I hate myself right nowbecause i have no passion for anything i just drone on and drone on. I have left myself get so out of control w/eating its crazy. I am now the heaviest i have ever been in my life. I need to be strong, to get back on track and to prove to myself that i am worthy. I need to take care of myself and be confident in who i am. I need to find passion in things. I need to change. So like i did so many years ago when i changed my life......I am starting a plan...a plan that i will not change around...that i will not give myself easy excuses out. I will do this..and i will be proud of myself. The first three weeks are the hardest so those are the weeks i know i have to be the strongest..no excuse will get me out of anything...this is the way it will be.

Plan:
Breakfast 2 pieces of whole wheat bread w/ fat free cream cheese/ketchup/egg whites/jam
Lunch/Snack one piece of fruit/pickle/slice of FF cheese
Dinner Big salad w/a palm sized piece of lean meat -also can have small cup of veggies(no dressing)/soup(can have 1 tablespoon of dressing on big salad)

Right now I probably weigh anywhere between 155-160
My goals
November 30-154
December 31- 147
january 31- 141
February 28- 135
march 31- 129
April 30- 124
May 31 - 120

This is what i have so far...im sure it wont come off as easily after the first two months...but iv gone from 155 to 130 in two months before so i know that it is doable!!
If anyone has any feedback that would be great? Does this look doable?