Alcomohall
This weekend is going to rock my socks right off. First, the Nanny will be there. What better way to spend my time? I mean, come on now! Friday I'm going up to the Mil to hang with the Mil-town peeps. Emily is going to come out and Amanda is going to come with me. Kellye and Julie may even come out depending on how their day goes. Saturday will be spent with Amanda, Kellye and Julie at the Taste, some gay parking lot bash and then off to the Double Door for the Todd's cd release party. Sunday is the Pride parade and then the lesbian bash at Ann Sather's. Busy, busy, busy. And Kris is going to come down at some point for some of it as well. I'm more than excited.
Tash is moving. It's inevitable and there's not a thing I can do about it. Like I said in my last entry, I know it's probably the best thing anyway. She's in Fort Wayne right now looking for jobs and such. I can't help but wonder where I went wrong. She told me she loved the intensity about me but that's the one thing that drove her away. How can you like a trait about yourself if it always seems to drive people away?
I'm trying to push that aspect of myself aside and take things slow with Emily. I'm not going to come on too strong or call all the time. I'm sick of running everyone off. I'm tired and I'm ready to have my feelings felt in return. But am I just running towards something that'll make me forget other problems? And what if she's not really what my heart desires? I know I have feelings for other people at this point in my life. Feelings I've had for months on end. Feelings that the other person doesn't believe are real. How can I make her believe that I'm not joking? How do I make her see that my intentions are pure?
Blah, I've had a few beers and this entry is going nowhere. It's time to pop in the Gilmore girls and go to bed.
Tash is moving. It's inevitable and there's not a thing I can do about it. Like I said in my last entry, I know it's probably the best thing anyway. She's in Fort Wayne right now looking for jobs and such. I can't help but wonder where I went wrong. She told me she loved the intensity about me but that's the one thing that drove her away. How can you like a trait about yourself if it always seems to drive people away?
I'm trying to push that aspect of myself aside and take things slow with Emily. I'm not going to come on too strong or call all the time. I'm sick of running everyone off. I'm tired and I'm ready to have my feelings felt in return. But am I just running towards something that'll make me forget other problems? And what if she's not really what my heart desires? I know I have feelings for other people at this point in my life. Feelings I've had for months on end. Feelings that the other person doesn't believe are real. How can I make her believe that I'm not joking? How do I make her see that my intentions are pure?
Blah, I've had a few beers and this entry is going nowhere. It's time to pop in the Gilmore girls and go to bed.