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i hate myself. i hate the life i lead.
i hate the faking crying i constantly need and how i convince myself that I am hurt
but i cant stop because i like pressure and i like attention and it will be the death of me sooner or later.
the words " do you ever wish you would just die " came out of my mouth and i was satisfied with the statement.
whats the point of having a boyfriend if he wont hold you even when you beg. whats the point of having friends when they don't give a shit if you drown in a puddle.whats the point of going to college if you dont have a future. what the point of sex when it hurts. whats the point of fear when there is really nothing that scary in the world minus rapest and serial killers. whats the point of parents that are strick but dont listen. whats the point of smiling when i know i frown much more often. whats the fucking point of life???
birth-childhood-adulthood-love-death i dont want anything else.it's not worth it.
i hate the faking crying i constantly need and how i convince myself that I am hurt
but i cant stop because i like pressure and i like attention and it will be the death of me sooner or later.
the words " do you ever wish you would just die " came out of my mouth and i was satisfied with the statement.
whats the point of having a boyfriend if he wont hold you even when you beg. whats the point of having friends when they don't give a shit if you drown in a puddle.whats the point of going to college if you dont have a future. what the point of sex when it hurts. whats the point of fear when there is really nothing that scary in the world minus rapest and serial killers. whats the point of parents that are strick but dont listen. whats the point of smiling when i know i frown much more often. whats the fucking point of life???
birth-childhood-adulthood-love-death i dont want anything else.it's not worth it.