*~*HeLl CaMp*~*
This past week has been band camp...or should I say hell camp....
You never know who your true friends are until they start to show their true colors. I think I knew this all along but would never really believe it so now its happened...
Lets just say that Kristen and I arent friends anymore. Idk what is goin on but I guess thats just the way that things happen....Thanks Kristen....
Ryan has broken my heart...hes really done it and its in pieces. He cant talk to me or even look at me and so idk what is the truth or what is rumors...guess we'll just see what happens...hope u 2 have fun together if thats whats goin on but I wouldnt know since I'll just have to wait to talk to you....
Randi and I got to become good friends this week. Thats been a super plus! Im glad that shes givin me a chance now and we can become friends! I heart ya gurlie!
Rose, RaNeisha, Laura, Kristi, Amber-you gurls were there for me all week this week! Thank you soo much! :) Idk if I could have dealt wit those 3 nights witout u and convincin me to stay and not leave! Thanks! Dancin in the cabin at night w/Carol wuz one of the best things that happened (the other wuz watchin Emily Swank and RaNeisha karoke!)
So that was my week and Im goin to go on livin life to its fullest and havin fun wit the gurls. Its goin to be so hard the next couple of months to see the 2 of them (wether they are together or not) and just lookin at them knowin what I know...I wish that it could go some other way but I guess Im just put here to be shit on...I miss him so much. As a person, boyfriend, and most of all a best friend. He isnt actin himself the past 2 weeks and I know this isnt Ryan. Im not sure what it is that is makin the change but I just wish he could at least look at me...he has to still be in love wit me or it wasnt really love...thats what hurts the most to think about....I still love him after all that he has put me thru and how he has treated me so y the hell doesnt he care?!
Im mad at u God...
You never know who your true friends are until they start to show their true colors. I think I knew this all along but would never really believe it so now its happened...
Lets just say that Kristen and I arent friends anymore. Idk what is goin on but I guess thats just the way that things happen....Thanks Kristen....
Ryan has broken my heart...hes really done it and its in pieces. He cant talk to me or even look at me and so idk what is the truth or what is rumors...guess we'll just see what happens...hope u 2 have fun together if thats whats goin on but I wouldnt know since I'll just have to wait to talk to you....
Randi and I got to become good friends this week. Thats been a super plus! Im glad that shes givin me a chance now and we can become friends! I heart ya gurlie!
Rose, RaNeisha, Laura, Kristi, Amber-you gurls were there for me all week this week! Thank you soo much! :) Idk if I could have dealt wit those 3 nights witout u and convincin me to stay and not leave! Thanks! Dancin in the cabin at night w/Carol wuz one of the best things that happened (the other wuz watchin Emily Swank and RaNeisha karoke!)
So that was my week and Im goin to go on livin life to its fullest and havin fun wit the gurls. Its goin to be so hard the next couple of months to see the 2 of them (wether they are together or not) and just lookin at them knowin what I know...I wish that it could go some other way but I guess Im just put here to be shit on...I miss him so much. As a person, boyfriend, and most of all a best friend. He isnt actin himself the past 2 weeks and I know this isnt Ryan. Im not sure what it is that is makin the change but I just wish he could at least look at me...he has to still be in love wit me or it wasnt really love...thats what hurts the most to think about....I still love him after all that he has put me thru and how he has treated me so y the hell doesnt he care?!
Im mad at u God...