:::::Its a mothers day::::: and all i want is to be alone

[jackiecrys]

WOW last night i didnt do anything....i was going to go to stephanies....but like that didnt work out at all...so oh well .I dont give a shit. I stayed home like a weepy little kid. I mainly stayed on the phone the whole time with my friend kellie. We just talked about how life is soooo messed up. Man i wish life was perfeect.....like "the rich and famous" haha okay not really but i can only pretend. Haha. Yeah so him and her hooked up last night(not wanting to put there names....its not worth al the drama)....."my knees went week" when i found out. Im a very depressed person(okay not really....im just feeling emo)haha. I mean that should have been me. Not her. Im not mad at him i guess....how can i be? Its like not in my will power to be mad. Is that totally selfish....im sorry if it is.....i cant help it. Any whoo.....Today is mothers day...."celebrating her" today. Its cool.....my mom deserves it. I got her a kick ass present.....haha i love shopping even if it isnt for me. Well this weekend from saturday on.....has been complete shit.The high light of my weekend was proly tommys and the phone call i got from Cody....totally love her.Thats for damn shure. It seems as if everyone is in this "life of hell" sort of thing...No ones happy....so when your trying to be happy even though you know your not you look for your friends.....haha but oh shit....there un-happy too. Man this is one big maze...that were never going to get out of. hahaha. Geese....maybie some day we will.

XoXoJackieXoXo

"death is just an excuse to forget you"