It's a Sad Day - It's Been a Frustrating Week
After going back and forth and back and forth and over and over again every hour of every day these past few weeks, I believe I have come to a decision (although who knows how it will change by Monday): I will decline my acceptance into the Cairo spring program next year.
Perhaps I will go another time, but for now, I am not ready for Egypt, and Egypt is not ready for me.
There was another terrorist attack in Egypt this week: Dahab, Sharm al-Sheik, by the Red Sea, Sinai Peninsula. It killed quite a few people and it was well-planed. The targets were tourists, again. I feel angry at all the terrorists out there for ruining my vacation, which I know sounds selfish and stupid, but it is what I feel. I'm also mad at my nation for doing things that piss off the middle east, and since the current administration would also be the one under which I would go to Cairo, it is probable that we won't stop doing things that piss them off. When I am there, I don't to have to deal with Bush doing something stupid and the people here erupting in anger. Basically, I don't want to die. And I don't want to be scared of dying on my vacation...sorry, study abroad :)
It's like breaking up with someone. It's such a hard decision, and once you make it you wanna turn back, and it is so sad, but you do it to yourself because you know it's for the best. Maybe it would've been the greatest experience of my life, but then again, maybe it would be the last, or most stressful. I'll admit, I cried when I decided this.
But the thing that is making me not go insane right now is the fact that I can still go later if I so choose. I'm only a freshman for God's sake. I was only admitted as a junior because of my retro. credits and AP credits. This program is meant for juniors. I can still go my junior or senior year. Maybe things will calm down by then. Maybe we will be leaving Iraq or have a better president who doesn't inflame the Middle East. Maybe that will change things. Plus, I'll be 21 of legal drinking age.
Now the question is, do I take Arabic next semester?
And where should I go instead?
And now I'm reconsidering. God, what's my deal? I wish I could tell the future.
Perhaps I will go another time, but for now, I am not ready for Egypt, and Egypt is not ready for me.
There was another terrorist attack in Egypt this week: Dahab, Sharm al-Sheik, by the Red Sea, Sinai Peninsula. It killed quite a few people and it was well-planed. The targets were tourists, again. I feel angry at all the terrorists out there for ruining my vacation, which I know sounds selfish and stupid, but it is what I feel. I'm also mad at my nation for doing things that piss off the middle east, and since the current administration would also be the one under which I would go to Cairo, it is probable that we won't stop doing things that piss them off. When I am there, I don't to have to deal with Bush doing something stupid and the people here erupting in anger. Basically, I don't want to die. And I don't want to be scared of dying on my vacation...sorry, study abroad :)
It's like breaking up with someone. It's such a hard decision, and once you make it you wanna turn back, and it is so sad, but you do it to yourself because you know it's for the best. Maybe it would've been the greatest experience of my life, but then again, maybe it would be the last, or most stressful. I'll admit, I cried when I decided this.
But the thing that is making me not go insane right now is the fact that I can still go later if I so choose. I'm only a freshman for God's sake. I was only admitted as a junior because of my retro. credits and AP credits. This program is meant for juniors. I can still go my junior or senior year. Maybe things will calm down by then. Maybe we will be leaving Iraq or have a better president who doesn't inflame the Middle East. Maybe that will change things. Plus, I'll be 21 of legal drinking age.
Now the question is, do I take Arabic next semester?
And where should I go instead?
And now I'm reconsidering. God, what's my deal? I wish I could tell the future.