Jun 29, 2006 14:06
challenges
lets use the rule of dimishing returns in agricultural/economic/intimate-relationship terms,
Does an increase of labour produce an increase of returns?
I think that depends on the seeds I come across and the land I am using for production. There are many factors in my world of why certain relationships don't pan out. However, i am putting effort into all of my relationships. old crops and new crops.
I believe in succession and rebuilding soil, changes in patterns, seasons, and paths in life.
what I am dealing with at the moment is my honest truth of jumping in head first with no brakes. I have just started dating again after a long term relationship ending. And the person I am dating is asking me for more than I feel i am capable of giving given the circumstances of our situation.
I am not keeping secrets or hiding my truths. They have been voiced from the get go. I am willing to maintain a relationship with her across the country, however I am not ready to be in a monogomous long distance relationship when I do not feel as though I am ready to be in that serious of a relationship yet.
It is one thing when the getting to know you process can happen and develop over time. That is what I am asking of her. I have fallen in love with her for a reason. I want her in my life, on a consistant basis, in an open situation. Not because I am still looking for "THE ONE", but based on the fact that I do not believe that there is just one!
I believe I am capable of maintaining more than one realtionship at a time if all parties are honest and open to the opportunity. I have learned a lot from my last partner about this process, and I have learned from my mistakes. I do not want to lie to myself about my needs and desires.
I want to date her. I can't date someone that isnt physically here.
I want to date her when i can see her. That hasnt changed. There are lots of people I would like to date, even some people I have already dated or been in relationships with.