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even though it was for school, it's

I didn’t cry then or ever.
I lost myself in your laugh,
In your coffin.

Needing to share something amazing,
A giddy love sick with happiness,
The pain of laughing too much:
When I feel these things
I know it’s you in those shivers
That rack my chest.

Your presence was a broken valve.
I couldn’t speak myself.
Now it could all bleed from me,
Every word, everything about me.
I’m fixed. I can tell you.
Can you hear me?

Your hand still keeps me from falling.
I never knew mine were bigger;
All of you always seemed bigger.
Seemed larger than life
And so much larger than death.

Flashing green glance, a droll lip,
Smiles are knives once I wake up
Drowning in sheets
And know you’re not here.
Sometimes in my dreams
I save you.