Also, I can kill you with my brain.
My life has been tangled in cords and cables lately; bound, suspended, directed and mobilized. I'm surrounded - the ceiling, the floor, the bed, Christmas... everywhere. If I wanted to tie you up, the most convenient binding would be a crossover cable no less than three feet from my position. Stumbling and any form of intoxicated movement has the potential to bring the very walls crashing down around you.
It's quite nice.
Today I remembered to save all my music and word files, but forgot about my pictures, and two of those lost pictures are especially upsetting losses. The one picture is of my little brother when he was about two wearing a blue suit and a blue tie, smiling his adorable little two year old smile. His eyes are shining and happy. That one, however, is no doubt hiding somewhere in my mother or sister's hard drives.
The other picture is of Lexi when she was a kitten and we were in the summer apartment. She's crouched in the pouncing position in a frying pan and her ears are huge. It's the cutest picture of an animal I've ever had. That is the only one I cannot get back.
It was my avatar on Hipinion, but it seems that my profile is no longer active, and despite my best efforts, I could not find that picture anywhere in that jungle of forums. I am sad about that.
Our house smells like Christmas trees and cinnamon. We bartered for the tree. It's beautiful and fun and it smells so nice. I smile every time I look at it... I'm enamored.
I decided I was going to have Christmas this year, despite life, because I like some parts of Christmas. I like to have an excuse for dinner parties and celebrations and food and friends and things that smell nice. I like to have an excuse to buy things for people and not have to worry about some kind of social awkwardness after the exchange. I like lights. I enjoy baking. I enjoy baking while surrounded by christmas lights, nice smells, music, festivities, friends and presents.
I LIKE IT, OKAY? I FIND IT FUN AND CHARMING AND FULFILLING.
So, fate, God, who or what ever you are, I give you the finger. The tree and lights are in place, I'm going to a fucking Christmas ball thing, there is going to be baking and I'm going to discuss plans for a Christmas party at our place with Erin.
There will be christmas, and I will be included.
I even bought myself a really expensive Christmas present, which should be arriving in the next five days or so. It's really the nicest thing I've ever bought myself (not including cars).
I'm excited.
It's quite nice.
Today I remembered to save all my music and word files, but forgot about my pictures, and two of those lost pictures are especially upsetting losses. The one picture is of my little brother when he was about two wearing a blue suit and a blue tie, smiling his adorable little two year old smile. His eyes are shining and happy. That one, however, is no doubt hiding somewhere in my mother or sister's hard drives.
The other picture is of Lexi when she was a kitten and we were in the summer apartment. She's crouched in the pouncing position in a frying pan and her ears are huge. It's the cutest picture of an animal I've ever had. That is the only one I cannot get back.
It was my avatar on Hipinion, but it seems that my profile is no longer active, and despite my best efforts, I could not find that picture anywhere in that jungle of forums. I am sad about that.
Our house smells like Christmas trees and cinnamon. We bartered for the tree. It's beautiful and fun and it smells so nice. I smile every time I look at it... I'm enamored.
I decided I was going to have Christmas this year, despite life, because I like some parts of Christmas. I like to have an excuse for dinner parties and celebrations and food and friends and things that smell nice. I like to have an excuse to buy things for people and not have to worry about some kind of social awkwardness after the exchange. I like lights. I enjoy baking. I enjoy baking while surrounded by christmas lights, nice smells, music, festivities, friends and presents.
I LIKE IT, OKAY? I FIND IT FUN AND CHARMING AND FULFILLING.
So, fate, God, who or what ever you are, I give you the finger. The tree and lights are in place, I'm going to a fucking Christmas ball thing, there is going to be baking and I'm going to discuss plans for a Christmas party at our place with Erin.
There will be christmas, and I will be included.
I even bought myself a really expensive Christmas present, which should be arriving in the next five days or so. It's really the nicest thing I've ever bought myself (not including cars).
I'm excited.