very confused
so ive been in a stand still for a couple days now. heres the story. so my roommate broke up with her boyfriend, who just happens to be like the main reason im here in this town at this second, thats cool. they break on good terms and yada yada yada. well a couple nights later she goes out with some guy. thats cool, i dont care. but here comes the twist. she told me before she left not to tell any of the other "guys," tell them i went out with one of my girlfriends. and so that night i was just kinda like okay fine whatever and went out myself and partied. but i get home later that night and it hits me. she just told ME to lie to MY friends about where she's going. to me thats just really fucked up cause first of all i'm not gonna go lie to friends like that, and second, you know their like the main reason i dropped what i was doing and moved. without them i got nothing here and my parents told me when i left dont think about trying to get your foot back in the door at home. so if i fuck up here im fucked. and i dont know, but i think all of this might have something to do with the fact that the very first time i saw this girl i was just like "daaaaaaammmmnn" and i had this huge crush on her for awhile. but eventually i let it go cause that was my friend's girlfriend, y'know. i didnt want to and still dont really, to a certain extent want to go stomping on my friends old ground you know. so the last few days ive been really depressed and confused and kinda pissed at the same time. and i dont know what i should do to help/get-rid-of or whatever to this situation and i know its a long ways away if things escalate i gotta do something by the end of june. so please anyone leave comments, suggestions, thoughts, or whatever. im confused and dont know what to do