Dec 04, 2005 19:13
you know, it really is true:
"if dreams are like movies, then memories are films about ghosts." (thank you counting crows)
why do i have so many films about ghosts? and why do i feel like a bad director? i'd like to think that it's because the actors didn't play their parts well enough. but i guess the buck stops with me. the problem with this metaphore is that everyone sees themselves as the director of their own films about ghosts. and we all make mistakes and our creative efforts are often different from others. imagine coppola directing a scene with hitchcock and fellini as actors. horrendous, exactly. that's life.
every time i try to ask another director to compromise their creative integrity to let me do what i want to do with my life's movie, they are mad or hurt because they don't like the way i work.
i guess, at the risk of sounding like a trite uber-christian, i guess God is a better director than me, and i need to learn to take his direction.