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yay! Merry Angstmas to all and to all a rough night!
i started work on a graphic novel last night, two separate people mentioned it in the same night so i decided it must be a sign. geez, i guess at least i'm doing something productive even though it's not for class.
i guess i'm just confused because i've always been able to cope with stuff pretty well. i've never been like this before. well, once, but i wasn't really very self aware then. it was junior high. and this is like junior high all over again. i kinda feel like an outcast, and like people are talking about me behind my back, and attempting to sabotage me. it's a paranoia that i'm not sure i'm justified in having. maybe i am. maybe not.
but i feel like i'm reasoning through it with god's help and some lights are peeking through the clouds.
i've got two modelling sessions scheduled, one tomorrow, one tuesday. those are fun and always make me feel good to be drawn or photographed by people that know what they are doing. because then i look at the pictures afterwards and i'm like "that's me!! this person is good!"
you know what i need to help me sort through these important issues...
ORANGE MOCHA FRAPPUCCINOS!!!
that's what i need.
i started work on a graphic novel last night, two separate people mentioned it in the same night so i decided it must be a sign. geez, i guess at least i'm doing something productive even though it's not for class.
i guess i'm just confused because i've always been able to cope with stuff pretty well. i've never been like this before. well, once, but i wasn't really very self aware then. it was junior high. and this is like junior high all over again. i kinda feel like an outcast, and like people are talking about me behind my back, and attempting to sabotage me. it's a paranoia that i'm not sure i'm justified in having. maybe i am. maybe not.
but i feel like i'm reasoning through it with god's help and some lights are peeking through the clouds.
i've got two modelling sessions scheduled, one tomorrow, one tuesday. those are fun and always make me feel good to be drawn or photographed by people that know what they are doing. because then i look at the pictures afterwards and i'm like "that's me!! this person is good!"
you know what i need to help me sort through these important issues...
ORANGE MOCHA FRAPPUCCINOS!!!
that's what i need.