I can't breathe
She's on her way back to Ko and what if something happens?
I went with her to the omniport. Well, to the transport station at the outer ring; they were scanning everyone, they wouldn't let me onto the grounds. They were loud and rude about it, people stared. I think it scared Snow, and it made her sad. It makes me sad that I'm getting used to it.
What if she can't? What if she gets back to Ko and it's beautiful, it's clean, it's safe, things work and the people aren't scary and it just feels too much like home? And she doesn't come back? I don't even know how to imagine what that would be like. And I don't even want to live in the same space with her right now, so what's that about?
I think I must be the most fucked-up selfish stupid person on the planet.
I am so tired of having things taken away.
I wish I was a thousand years old and knew everything.
I went with her to the omniport. Well, to the transport station at the outer ring; they were scanning everyone, they wouldn't let me onto the grounds. They were loud and rude about it, people stared. I think it scared Snow, and it made her sad. It makes me sad that I'm getting used to it.
What if she can't? What if she gets back to Ko and it's beautiful, it's clean, it's safe, things work and the people aren't scary and it just feels too much like home? And she doesn't come back? I don't even know how to imagine what that would be like. And I don't even want to live in the same space with her right now, so what's that about?
I think I must be the most fucked-up selfish stupid person on the planet.
I am so tired of having things taken away.
I wish I was a thousand years old and knew everything.