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so i found someone that i really like.
at first i thought damn we just have too many differences.
but now i really think that we have similarities in things that matter the most, especially in the relationship aspect.
since my last relationship i've felt the need to look for short term things but thats not like me at all. hes made me grow up a lot and be true to myself. he has made me think about life, faith, love....i want to be with someone who helps me like that...without even trying to...he isnt even trying to help me he just...talks and its all perfect. its exactly what i know i want. but i cant have it.
i feel like i screwed myself over.
i wasnt being true to myself and what i wanted when i first started talking to him and i feel like its hurting me now.
i dont think he feels the same way.
i know he doesnt feel the same way.
i just wish i could have done things differently.
i wish i would have been thinking.
i wish i could see what he sees in other girls that make them so great.
i want to be that great thing....
at first i thought damn we just have too many differences.
but now i really think that we have similarities in things that matter the most, especially in the relationship aspect.
since my last relationship i've felt the need to look for short term things but thats not like me at all. hes made me grow up a lot and be true to myself. he has made me think about life, faith, love....i want to be with someone who helps me like that...without even trying to...he isnt even trying to help me he just...talks and its all perfect. its exactly what i know i want. but i cant have it.
i feel like i screwed myself over.
i wasnt being true to myself and what i wanted when i first started talking to him and i feel like its hurting me now.
i dont think he feels the same way.
i know he doesnt feel the same way.
i just wish i could have done things differently.
i wish i would have been thinking.
i wish i could see what he sees in other girls that make them so great.
i want to be that great thing....