Hello...
this is my first post in many-a-months...
i feel so happy, yet sad at the same time...
in a few weeks, im apparently moving several thousand miles from texas...
i dont know how im going to live there...
i dont know if ill be able to get a job...
and the worse of it all, im not sure how ill get back if i cant make it...
from the awesome unforgettable line of CAKE, "i need your arms around me, i need to feel your touch"...
and boy is it true...
this world our parents try and prepare us for, haha, almost everyone is completely shut off to this feeling till the last second...
ive always felt far from them, but never as far as when im in the home and think so damn far away...
ill admit, im scared shitless...
i cant breath most of the time...
(haha not really due to the thought of moving, but because im sick...)
ive been out of my house since as long as i can remember...
ive been to sarah's house days at a time...
roberts house...
steve's house...
but now im really missing my parents...
but the funny thing is, im still here...
and im missing them like madd...
it felt like yesterday, i didnt even care if i would have left and never looked back, but i see all they have done for me, never let me down...
pretty much the only people i can truely trust, may it be lies, cheating, backstabbing... but not them...
and i dont know how i can go and turn my back on them, the nights become more and more like the days i see...
nothing...
dull
ill be without friends....
ill be without family.....
ill be without my wingman brother.....
ill be without my ex-friends.....
its all becoming unbearable...
but itll have to work...
if you finished this, i thank you for listening to my problems...
cuz it wont matter when you exit the internet, cuz itll still be my problems....
....my, how times have changed....
no matter how much we try...
one way or another...
change,change,change....
take care all...
i will miss you all....
THANK YOU TEXAS !!!
AND GOOD NIGHT !!!
(well, more like morning...)
i feel so happy, yet sad at the same time...
in a few weeks, im apparently moving several thousand miles from texas...
i dont know how im going to live there...
i dont know if ill be able to get a job...
and the worse of it all, im not sure how ill get back if i cant make it...
from the awesome unforgettable line of CAKE, "i need your arms around me, i need to feel your touch"...
and boy is it true...
this world our parents try and prepare us for, haha, almost everyone is completely shut off to this feeling till the last second...
ive always felt far from them, but never as far as when im in the home and think so damn far away...
ill admit, im scared shitless...
i cant breath most of the time...
(haha not really due to the thought of moving, but because im sick...)
ive been out of my house since as long as i can remember...
ive been to sarah's house days at a time...
roberts house...
steve's house...
but now im really missing my parents...
but the funny thing is, im still here...
and im missing them like madd...
it felt like yesterday, i didnt even care if i would have left and never looked back, but i see all they have done for me, never let me down...
pretty much the only people i can truely trust, may it be lies, cheating, backstabbing... but not them...
and i dont know how i can go and turn my back on them, the nights become more and more like the days i see...
nothing...
dull
ill be without friends....
ill be without family.....
ill be without my wingman brother.....
ill be without my ex-friends.....
its all becoming unbearable...
but itll have to work...
if you finished this, i thank you for listening to my problems...
cuz it wont matter when you exit the internet, cuz itll still be my problems....
....my, how times have changed....
no matter how much we try...
one way or another...
change,change,change....
take care all...
i will miss you all....
THANK YOU TEXAS !!!
AND GOOD NIGHT !!!
(well, more like morning...)