Shelter Me Oh Genious Words....

[jack_of_knaves]

This calls for a more serious LiveJournal entry. I've just returned from the common room, in which we were watching a pretty poor quality piracy job of Superbad. Now while I must agree that the comedy is great, I find that much of it is based on the more naive of those in teenage society. For example, the main character Seth, while well versed in modern party practices, rituals, and code, subscribes himself to a greater standard with the beliefs that these things do not matter that much and hopelessly believes that there is something greater to be had from it. He holds greater respect for his crush Becca. He wants a truly strong relationship to last between them, and not some mindless, drunk, hookup. That's the story of Superbad I watched....and I felt sorry. I long for things to be much more simple, and less destructive. I don't want to risk my health or status for a physical pleasure. I may be a hopeless romantic, but I am not going to risk myself, for a relationship. I am not that desperate. These relationships I've seen made lately are based on a purely carnal instinct where either one or both parties is interested in only physical relations. The facade that is put up is a mere ruse where, again, either one or both parties feign emotional interest in the other just to maintain that initial, carnal desire. It seems to me that I'm almost the opposite. I search for a nice emotional attachment and have to put up facade to hide that, so I can blend in and note act out of social turn. That not to say I wouldn't have a fairly fun time drinking or partying...it's just I can't enjoy mindless hookups. I think I skipped that phase of my life.

In summation, I want things to be less complicated. I want relationships to be easier to read. I want people to be honest and not hide from their feelings. I miss the freedom!...I miss the freedom! I miss.........