Oh Where to Begin...
So you should remember my post from a few days back about my kitties...getting them fixed. I believe I may have mentioned about definately biting the bullet and getting them fixed. We took them to the Human Society on Wednesday and brought them home on Thursday before my Root Canal.
The people gave us a list of care instructions...one of them was listed that the cats were going to be quite sluggish for the first 24 hours...so when Tolouse was still sluggish yesterday and not eating (their appetite was supposed to slowly return) I didn't think much of it.
But I've been doing everything right! Checking them twice a day to make there there isn't any swelling or anything at the incision site. Well I hadn't checked them yet this morning...I was in the process of doing something and my mom went out on the porch herself to check. Next thing I know she's telling me a cat has died.
I started freaking out...Tolouse and Monet I've had for four years...they were born the first spring we were in this house. Their momma Samantha I've had for six years and for a split second I was terrified it was Samantha.
I go out there and I had lost Tolouse...my heart has shattered into a million tiny little pieces. I feel numb at this point from the death of yet another cat...and this time it wasn't even a kitten I lost...it was my cat...a cat I've loved for four years....I still remember the morning mom told me we had kittens and Samantha let me take care of them and love on them.
They were my artist cats.
I have cried soo much today I'm just utterly exhausted...
My brother wasn't supposed to come round till two, but I got an im sent to him about ten minutes after we discovered the cat asking if he could come sooner to dig my baby a grave. By then I was calm down...and only lost it again when he took her out of the kennel to put her into the grave.
I feel like parts of my heart are dying with each cat. I can't lose another...we don't know if she had an allergic reaction to her rabies shot or the anistesia...
I was thinking about it today and thought 'What if we had taken Ianto...what if he hadn't handled it....what if I had lost him' considering how much pain I went through when I lost his brothers and sister last summer....I would have gone nuts if something had happened to him.
It's still horrible thinking about it...I can't imagine life without her...
On top of that Andy (my brother) informed us today that his wife, my sister in law...joined the Army...Not even reserves...full time.
I support Melanie cause I love her...and I think mom is being supportive..but I just am worried for her.
It was nice spending time with them today...she was very talkative and happy and peppy today towards me...she usually isn't so talkative. I mean we were at Barnes and Noble and she even recomended some of her favorite Vampire Series to me....which I'm going to read after I read the two Sookie books I have left.
I think Andy has felt like complete crap today about what's happened to me and he kind of spoiled me...we went to lunch...he let me get an ice cream cone at Coldstone (Banana, Chocolate, and cheesecake ice cream mixed together with graham cracker crust...), and we went to Barnes and Noble where I found a special SFX magazine set...all about...Vampires.
Which it came with the most amazing thing ever....Buffy the vampire slayer drink coasters...One with Angel, one with Spike, one with Buffy, and one with the whole scooby gang. It also came with a double sided poster for the show 'Being Human' and the other side is uh....'New Moon' :P *gags*
And I can finally say I own all seven seasons of Buffy and all five seasons of Angel...so yeah...momma bought those for me...
Anyways gonna run...I have Angel on and have no idea what the fuck is going on...and I still need to take a bath before church tomorrow...
Much love, Beccs! ^_^
The people gave us a list of care instructions...one of them was listed that the cats were going to be quite sluggish for the first 24 hours...so when Tolouse was still sluggish yesterday and not eating (their appetite was supposed to slowly return) I didn't think much of it.
But I've been doing everything right! Checking them twice a day to make there there isn't any swelling or anything at the incision site. Well I hadn't checked them yet this morning...I was in the process of doing something and my mom went out on the porch herself to check. Next thing I know she's telling me a cat has died.
I started freaking out...Tolouse and Monet I've had for four years...they were born the first spring we were in this house. Their momma Samantha I've had for six years and for a split second I was terrified it was Samantha.
I go out there and I had lost Tolouse...my heart has shattered into a million tiny little pieces. I feel numb at this point from the death of yet another cat...and this time it wasn't even a kitten I lost...it was my cat...a cat I've loved for four years....I still remember the morning mom told me we had kittens and Samantha let me take care of them and love on them.
They were my artist cats.
I have cried soo much today I'm just utterly exhausted...
My brother wasn't supposed to come round till two, but I got an im sent to him about ten minutes after we discovered the cat asking if he could come sooner to dig my baby a grave. By then I was calm down...and only lost it again when he took her out of the kennel to put her into the grave.
I feel like parts of my heart are dying with each cat. I can't lose another...we don't know if she had an allergic reaction to her rabies shot or the anistesia...
I was thinking about it today and thought 'What if we had taken Ianto...what if he hadn't handled it....what if I had lost him' considering how much pain I went through when I lost his brothers and sister last summer....I would have gone nuts if something had happened to him.
It's still horrible thinking about it...I can't imagine life without her...
On top of that Andy (my brother) informed us today that his wife, my sister in law...joined the Army...Not even reserves...full time.
I support Melanie cause I love her...and I think mom is being supportive..but I just am worried for her.
It was nice spending time with them today...she was very talkative and happy and peppy today towards me...she usually isn't so talkative. I mean we were at Barnes and Noble and she even recomended some of her favorite Vampire Series to me....which I'm going to read after I read the two Sookie books I have left.
I think Andy has felt like complete crap today about what's happened to me and he kind of spoiled me...we went to lunch...he let me get an ice cream cone at Coldstone (Banana, Chocolate, and cheesecake ice cream mixed together with graham cracker crust...), and we went to Barnes and Noble where I found a special SFX magazine set...all about...Vampires.
Which it came with the most amazing thing ever....Buffy the vampire slayer drink coasters...One with Angel, one with Spike, one with Buffy, and one with the whole scooby gang. It also came with a double sided poster for the show 'Being Human' and the other side is uh....'New Moon' :P *gags*
And I can finally say I own all seven seasons of Buffy and all five seasons of Angel...so yeah...momma bought those for me...
Anyways gonna run...I have Angel on and have no idea what the fuck is going on...and I still need to take a bath before church tomorrow...
Much love, Beccs! ^_^