They all just leave in the end
I think I've finally figured out why this whole band drama with FOB and shit the last twenty four hours has gotten me so upset. Seriously I've been debbie fucking downer all fucking day...I think I finally understand part of it.
I think a part of me feels like these bands are abandoning me and all of their other fans. I know it's stupid and thye have to do what's best for them.
But you know, the hush sound got me through one of the worst summers of my life. I seriously feel like I need to write this to Greta if I definitely get to go to Baltimore to see her.
The summer of 2008 was horrible for me. I lost my relationship with my father that summer and a whole other load of drama. I went through stuff in 08 that no fifteen year old should have to put up with.
I honestly want to cry as I write this because a part of me just feels torn down and worn down from all of these stupid fucking bands.
If anything this is teaching me it's not to get fucking attached, especially to people you don't even know. Because they are just going to let you down and leave you in the end.
Why is it too, that I'm with a friend right now and I feel so utterly alone??
When listening to music isn't even helping me get through this mood I'm in, then I don't know what the fuck to do anymore. I honestly don't.
Music used to be my salvation now it's just not helping me at all.
I think a part of me feels like these bands are abandoning me and all of their other fans. I know it's stupid and thye have to do what's best for them.
But you know, the hush sound got me through one of the worst summers of my life. I seriously feel like I need to write this to Greta if I definitely get to go to Baltimore to see her.
The summer of 2008 was horrible for me. I lost my relationship with my father that summer and a whole other load of drama. I went through stuff in 08 that no fifteen year old should have to put up with.
I honestly want to cry as I write this because a part of me just feels torn down and worn down from all of these stupid fucking bands.
If anything this is teaching me it's not to get fucking attached, especially to people you don't even know. Because they are just going to let you down and leave you in the end.
Why is it too, that I'm with a friend right now and I feel so utterly alone??
When listening to music isn't even helping me get through this mood I'm in, then I don't know what the fuck to do anymore. I honestly don't.
Music used to be my salvation now it's just not helping me at all.