My Wife
My wife as always been what I would call “reserved”. We have never been compatible sexually. I like to spice things up in bed and she has not been very receptive. Even when we would have sex, she would just lay there and not make a sound. I would ask her to moan to let me know if it felt good and she would tell me that she was moaning in her mind. That did not do me any good. Hearing a woman moan is a huge turn-on.
We have been married six and a half years and over the last several that reserve has gotten much worse and gone to dead. I am not sure what is up with her. I have asked her and she does not know either. I have just stopped trying. It takes too much energy. I have suggested that we go to couples counseling but she refuses. Part of the problem is with me. I just have this feeling that no woman (not even Jen) would find me attractive that I should not even bother.
I think about leaving her often, but I doubt that I will do it (at least not now). We actually joke about divorce and she says that we have to wait until my mother dies. Sometimes I wonder if I even love her or if I am just comfortable in the situation. I probably love her. I would not want anything to hurt her.