the simple life
so i have had a lot of change ove the last year so i decided to change myself even more dramatically.
i have never loved life, loved people, loved myself so much as i have in these past few months. i am just so happy now.... i dont know what i am doing right, i guess i just am.
this is the last time that i will be at home with my parents and i decided i want to make the best of it. i dont want to be fighting with my parents and in a bad mood all of the time because of some stupid musical. i also joined lifetime fitness over break and i decided id rather be in good physical shape than be a part of a musical where i will be in the back all of the time. i would rather be around positive people (my friends) than being put down all of the time by debbi and cathi. really, its annoying. there are also a lot of things i will be missing out on by not doing musical like the friends i have in musical and the fun i always have... i really do. i just want to remember my 2nd semseter senior year.
anyways, i plan on being bad, honestly. not until finals are over next week, but i dont want to be bad. its just, i never got a chance to fuck up my sophomore or junior year. and i really want to get the chance to at least have fun now.
thats where my decision stands. the positives of not doing it outweigh the negatives, unfortunately. i wish i could do both.
mr. baltz was sick for 6th hour physics today which was more than just a miracle.
not only did i get out of a quiz i wasnt going to take anyways, but i also got to have a really cool conversation with a bunch of really cool people. people i would never normally have conversations with. it was just me, evan, minna, so-jin, carlie, kirsten, and claire and it was really cool. mr. glassman was our sub. he was sitting behind us while we were talking. i didnt know what he was doing, i just thought he was sitting there, but then in the end he told us he was listening to every word we were saying and taking notes. he observed that we would talk for hours upon end if we had nothin else to do (if the bell didnt ring) and yah, i guess we could.
this is the list of topics we talked about (as far as i can remember) that he wrote down:
-drugs (cocaine)
-coming to school under the influence of drugs and/or alcohol
-mixing paint
-driving in snow
-shopping
-car accidents
-whitney
-parties
-themed parties
-gay people
-alternative schools
-dating
-model high school
-parking passes
volkswagen beetle/audi tt
-alix and emily at the night club picture
-sara nyman getting sent away
-alex andreaco's pants
-gym memberships
-vinny
-so-jin's hair color
-neiman marcus 30% off sale
-musical
-abby fisher
-mr. craig swearing at students
...the list goes on and on....
anyways, when he read all of us the list, i thought i was going to shit my pants considering he was giving it to mr. baltz. mr. glassman probably thinks im the worst person in the world. seriously, i didnt even think of anything when he was sitting behind us. but evidenatlly it was all for a book that he is writing someday. lol, i cant wait to read it. why buy the copy when you can get it for free, right? jeesus, that man can talk. he is really, really cool though.
so-jin told me that she ran into matt card over the summer. he asked her where she went to school, she said "seaholm." he replied, "oh, do you know jack miller." and then she thought he said that he was dating me. i turned next to evan and i laughed. out loud. i was just like "yah, i really wish. must have heard wrong."
new addictions:
-citizens for humanity jeans on girls
-buying presents
-working out at lifetime
-i relapsed on the cigarette thing... oops...
but, as im watching the real world right now i see the girl smoking parliament lights which really makes me love to smoke them, you know. its that damn box. oh well. guess i cant be perfect. just gotta be careful.
have a good night kids.
i have never loved life, loved people, loved myself so much as i have in these past few months. i am just so happy now.... i dont know what i am doing right, i guess i just am.
this is the last time that i will be at home with my parents and i decided i want to make the best of it. i dont want to be fighting with my parents and in a bad mood all of the time because of some stupid musical. i also joined lifetime fitness over break and i decided id rather be in good physical shape than be a part of a musical where i will be in the back all of the time. i would rather be around positive people (my friends) than being put down all of the time by debbi and cathi. really, its annoying. there are also a lot of things i will be missing out on by not doing musical like the friends i have in musical and the fun i always have... i really do. i just want to remember my 2nd semseter senior year.
anyways, i plan on being bad, honestly. not until finals are over next week, but i dont want to be bad. its just, i never got a chance to fuck up my sophomore or junior year. and i really want to get the chance to at least have fun now.
thats where my decision stands. the positives of not doing it outweigh the negatives, unfortunately. i wish i could do both.
mr. baltz was sick for 6th hour physics today which was more than just a miracle.
not only did i get out of a quiz i wasnt going to take anyways, but i also got to have a really cool conversation with a bunch of really cool people. people i would never normally have conversations with. it was just me, evan, minna, so-jin, carlie, kirsten, and claire and it was really cool. mr. glassman was our sub. he was sitting behind us while we were talking. i didnt know what he was doing, i just thought he was sitting there, but then in the end he told us he was listening to every word we were saying and taking notes. he observed that we would talk for hours upon end if we had nothin else to do (if the bell didnt ring) and yah, i guess we could.
this is the list of topics we talked about (as far as i can remember) that he wrote down:
-drugs (cocaine)
-coming to school under the influence of drugs and/or alcohol
-mixing paint
-driving in snow
-shopping
-car accidents
-whitney
-parties
-themed parties
-gay people
-alternative schools
-dating
-model high school
-parking passes
volkswagen beetle/audi tt
-alix and emily at the night club picture
-sara nyman getting sent away
-alex andreaco's pants
-gym memberships
-vinny
-so-jin's hair color
-neiman marcus 30% off sale
-musical
-abby fisher
-mr. craig swearing at students
...the list goes on and on....
anyways, when he read all of us the list, i thought i was going to shit my pants considering he was giving it to mr. baltz. mr. glassman probably thinks im the worst person in the world. seriously, i didnt even think of anything when he was sitting behind us. but evidenatlly it was all for a book that he is writing someday. lol, i cant wait to read it. why buy the copy when you can get it for free, right? jeesus, that man can talk. he is really, really cool though.
so-jin told me that she ran into matt card over the summer. he asked her where she went to school, she said "seaholm." he replied, "oh, do you know jack miller." and then she thought he said that he was dating me. i turned next to evan and i laughed. out loud. i was just like "yah, i really wish. must have heard wrong."
new addictions:
-citizens for humanity jeans on girls
-buying presents
-working out at lifetime
-i relapsed on the cigarette thing... oops...
but, as im watching the real world right now i see the girl smoking parliament lights which really makes me love to smoke them, you know. its that damn box. oh well. guess i cant be perfect. just gotta be careful.
have a good night kids.