my heart needs help.

[jacis_emma]

so i had a weird dream last night...like extremely weird.  but it was so incredibly real!  so i wanted to make it real, so when i woke up this morning and b4 work i got the phone to call him.  but i couldn't do it.  it was like my heart needs to and wants to do this, just so it knows that theres really nothing there nemore.  but my mind couldn't handle it.  cuz i know if there was nothing there, i wouldn't be ok. eventually i'd get over it.  but it would take a lot of mending.

my heart has encountered way to many problems.  poor thing.