What is life
I came back yesterday from college. Had a major exam but only 1 paper. Drove all the way to seremban. journey was uneventful except that i was waiting for my sister to finish her class and that lecturer had to prolong the class of all the days yesterday! Sometimes you think about life and its purpose and the reason of being here. But the answers that you come out with does not always justify the actions that will soon follow. People are being proud, jealous, arrogant, and all kind of funny and silly feelings that does not bring happiness in the long run but right now brings somewhat measures of glory maybe emits some awe from the people from around. They can pretend to be huge and tough or even dangerous but what they dont understand is that pretentious live is very fragile. The true people who are such are very humble and dont show off their true character unless in a uncompromising situations. These times are when they come out in flying colours. They dont depend on the crowd that is behind them. They dont depend on the contacts which can help them. These people stand firm on the feet and take what comes head on. Anyone can shout, show a big front, be macho, in front of anyone, but the one true man will come alone and shine at that particular moment which will overshadow everything else.
For me its my family which is the only reason for my being. They are important to me more than my life. I dont care what happens to me, the humiliation that i will go through, or the condemnation tht i will receive. As long as nothing happens to my family members, i will take all with a pinch of salt. Kick me, hurt me, humiliate me, cast me aside I dont give a damn. But mess with a single member of my family and meet your doom. That will be the start of what the tamilians say....7 years of bad luck.. I thrive being alone. I dont like anyone clinging on to me except my family (membership is luxurious)i like being free. I like just going anywhere doing anything without anyone coming from behind and asking me to call them or take them out or see them or lets-go-here thing or lets-go-there thing. I hate that in an individual. I would prefer anyone or everyone to leave me alone. I will get on fine. But of course the privilege remains with my family members. Only they can summon me anywhere. Only they can command me anything. Only them. Like my brothers, when in need they ask of me, and i give what i can. (Recently the situation was reversed!! Didnt thought it would happen but it did) Like my sister, I would jump at the opportunity to do her bidding. Which extends to her selected friends because of her. Or my mother, who will ask me to listen and take her places, which i gladly perform. I am the official driver most of the time i am back and she takes the pride in telling that "my son will do this for you" and " my son will help you" or "my son will drive you back". And my dad who takes the pleasure of talking to me like a friend. There are so many things which is between both of us and mom was not to know. Its fun being with my dad except that not many understand his way. They just refuse to understand or they do not accept his ways, i dont know. Its just that each member of my family is unique. One is modern, one is conservative, one is temperamental, one is subtly rebellious, one is the commander. Love my family so much that i wish that i die first before any of them cause definitely my heart will not be able to handle it. Though i may seem tough, i am quite fragile in these matters. Nothing comes in the way between me and my family.
For me its my family which is the only reason for my being. They are important to me more than my life. I dont care what happens to me, the humiliation that i will go through, or the condemnation tht i will receive. As long as nothing happens to my family members, i will take all with a pinch of salt. Kick me, hurt me, humiliate me, cast me aside I dont give a damn. But mess with a single member of my family and meet your doom. That will be the start of what the tamilians say....7 years of bad luck.. I thrive being alone. I dont like anyone clinging on to me except my family (membership is luxurious)i like being free. I like just going anywhere doing anything without anyone coming from behind and asking me to call them or take them out or see them or lets-go-here thing or lets-go-there thing. I hate that in an individual. I would prefer anyone or everyone to leave me alone. I will get on fine. But of course the privilege remains with my family members. Only they can summon me anywhere. Only they can command me anything. Only them. Like my brothers, when in need they ask of me, and i give what i can. (Recently the situation was reversed!! Didnt thought it would happen but it did) Like my sister, I would jump at the opportunity to do her bidding. Which extends to her selected friends because of her. Or my mother, who will ask me to listen and take her places, which i gladly perform. I am the official driver most of the time i am back and she takes the pride in telling that "my son will do this for you" and " my son will help you" or "my son will drive you back". And my dad who takes the pleasure of talking to me like a friend. There are so many things which is between both of us and mom was not to know. Its fun being with my dad except that not many understand his way. They just refuse to understand or they do not accept his ways, i dont know. Its just that each member of my family is unique. One is modern, one is conservative, one is temperamental, one is subtly rebellious, one is the commander. Love my family so much that i wish that i die first before any of them cause definitely my heart will not be able to handle it. Though i may seem tough, i am quite fragile in these matters. Nothing comes in the way between me and my family.