Jan 01, 2005 06:47
All I wanted was to spend a nice New years with Rob.
But now all im going to do now is leave him alone and try to avoid him.
I cause too much problems.
He doesnt need, no no
he doesnt deserve me yelling and
I dont need to be me, because oboviously
its not good enough for anybody.
Actually im not good enough for me.
I will never be able to look or think of myself as someone good enough.
Because I hate me.
I REALLY hate me.
And I become mean and I make others upset, mad, sad.
I make him feel bad all the time.
A person should never make you feel that.
Im horrible.I try to fix things.
like I went back to see him tonight
And he wouldnt talk.
Its for the best if I leave him alone.
I love him and I dont want to be a bitch
to him anymore or to Anyone.
Have a good 2005. 2004 was awesome.
Cheers that 2005 will be MUCH better! :)
I will miss everything about 2004 GOODBYE