To put a fine line on it...
how can I continue to be friends with someone who continues to fuck me over?
I'm tired of
** being accused of stuff I would never do;
** being told I'm a bad friend over stuff that she's done to me MORE THAN ONCE;
and just tired of it all.
Despite that, it's still hard. I don't want to feel like this about someone I have all this history with. And let's face it - I don't have all THAT many friends. I have to say "can I afford to be picky?" :(
And if she weren't such a HYPOCRITE then I could let a lot of it go!
Some of the stuff she says - then does - is just so ridiculous I have a hard time believing this could be the same person!
For example:
One of her other friends kissed this guy (kissed him ONCE just messing around and not even THAT kind of kiss) that she kind of liked (one of several) and I didn't hear the end of it for months, but she can totally do MORE than kiss someone I kind of liked (one of FEW) and that's okay.
She can hook up with a guy that I liked and that's okay but when K went out with Billy, again, had to listen to her whine about it for months.
and boy am I just a horrible person for messing around with Rich (Boy A). He's the ex of someone I haven't seen in over a year and a half and don't even speak to, have no idea what's going on in her life, etc. Yet, she did Ryan. Seriously - aaarrrrrgggghhhhhh!
That's the hypocrisy. I've also been accused of kissing Rick - this 'great love' of her life. (for the record - EW) - and accused of telling people she got a DUI. (which I just did, but since not one person reads this - well, do I really care????) I'm getting to the point of "since I'm being accused of it - I may as well just do it"... I can't win either way!
I haven't quite decided how I'm going to handle this - but just not being around her that much will solve a lot of it. Eventually it will just be history... :(
Some other bits of tid:
I need to really work out some more and eat less if I'm going to go through with the tattoo.
I don't want to go anywhere today (to keep from spending money) - so I am bored - but note that I did change my user pics.
I finished crocheting my blanket:
It's not perfect but it was fun. Now I'm crocheting a scarf for Junior - as if she needs a scarf in Florida in May...