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So. Yeah.
I have this tendency to get down on myself for failing at life if I think I'm not exercising my intellect/creativity/effort to my fullest potential. And I have a lot of potential. But on the other hand, I'm also 76% miserable whenever the stars align and I'm actually doing whatever my brain seems to think is the current definition of success.
I have a job, I run, I'm going to dance and boxing and even swimming sometimes, I'm mostly happy, I'm not actively manic/depressed, I pay my bills/rent, I make plans with people and then actually go through with them.
About half the time, this does actually manage to outweigh the fact that I'm not going back to grad school this year (possibly ever). The other half of the time, I get all You're Wasting Your Life Get A Career Or Publish Something. Which is probably not the way to go.
Also this summer, rather sudden lactose intolerance onset. Anyone care to name non-dairy sources of protein or calcium, because I'm getting really bored of nut butter really fast, and I can't cook for shit :/