You dont always get what you want
sometimes things just dont go the way you want them to. Gina most likely isnt moving to flordia anymore. Its for a bunch of reasons that i understand and i know why she cant, maybe things will change again and she will but as of right now its unlikely. when she told me it was kinda like someone shooting me. i didnt even say anything for a minuet and once it started hitting me i hung up without saying one word.
She called me back 30 min or so later and i picked up. we talked for a really long time. Im not sure whats going to happen, she kept saying that things would be better but i just didnt know what to do. i almost ended it right then but then i started thinking. When we started all of this i didnt expect her to move at all to flordia. i was soo happy to be with her and i didnt care about the distance. why would it be different now? im still dating the girl in texas, right? its like the whole flordia thing didnt exist at all. its just hard, i would always plan weekends with her and i would also dream about what we would be doing on the weekends when we met up every friday.
I gave her a choice last night, i told her that everything would be extremely hard if we kept trying and it would be hard to do a long distance thing so i gave her a choice i wanted her to make, to either just end things now and make everything easy or to try her best to do what we can to stay together, i think it was a hard choice thinking about the future and i think that is when she started crying. then she said that she wanted to stay with me. i cant believe she would try to be with me knowing the future isnt going to be easy at all.
I think we are going to give each other alot more freedom and we are both going to get out alot more so i think its going to be fine. im not going to get upset if she goes out with friends and shes not going to get upset when i go out. we TRUST each other. its hard to trust someone thats half way across the country but on the other hand, shes not just someone. "we always have the future" every told me, i know that IF something happened and we drifted apart and we dated around and we stoped talking and everything it would be fine. i KNOW that once i see her again and once she sees me nothing will stop us from being together again. we just have to let time do its thing. we both programmed in our phone May 11th to call each other no matter what. we might get in a fight or something but we made a promise that we would both call each other that day and over the summer we would see each other again and it would be like nothing happened. and thats ONLY if we dont work out until then.
Im confident in her, i know she will make the right decisions and the best part is i know that even if we drift apart, the future will include us being together. im happy either way. i love her and those three words alone will always bring me back to her
She called me back 30 min or so later and i picked up. we talked for a really long time. Im not sure whats going to happen, she kept saying that things would be better but i just didnt know what to do. i almost ended it right then but then i started thinking. When we started all of this i didnt expect her to move at all to flordia. i was soo happy to be with her and i didnt care about the distance. why would it be different now? im still dating the girl in texas, right? its like the whole flordia thing didnt exist at all. its just hard, i would always plan weekends with her and i would also dream about what we would be doing on the weekends when we met up every friday.
I gave her a choice last night, i told her that everything would be extremely hard if we kept trying and it would be hard to do a long distance thing so i gave her a choice i wanted her to make, to either just end things now and make everything easy or to try her best to do what we can to stay together, i think it was a hard choice thinking about the future and i think that is when she started crying. then she said that she wanted to stay with me. i cant believe she would try to be with me knowing the future isnt going to be easy at all.
I think we are going to give each other alot more freedom and we are both going to get out alot more so i think its going to be fine. im not going to get upset if she goes out with friends and shes not going to get upset when i go out. we TRUST each other. its hard to trust someone thats half way across the country but on the other hand, shes not just someone. "we always have the future" every told me, i know that IF something happened and we drifted apart and we dated around and we stoped talking and everything it would be fine. i KNOW that once i see her again and once she sees me nothing will stop us from being together again. we just have to let time do its thing. we both programmed in our phone May 11th to call each other no matter what. we might get in a fight or something but we made a promise that we would both call each other that day and over the summer we would see each other again and it would be like nothing happened. and thats ONLY if we dont work out until then.
Im confident in her, i know she will make the right decisions and the best part is i know that even if we drift apart, the future will include us being together. im happy either way. i love her and those three words alone will always bring me back to her