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Im so hurt! But im not crying.
The thought of college sucks. Its ruining my life
I dont want to go!
No one will miss me! it doesnt matter anymore.
I should have seen Steve Bendal yesterday but i gave into something that isnt gonna last and i need steve ive need him for 4 years now and i hate myself soo much for that.
I want things to work out. but i thought to myself last night if it doesnt then well i guess it is for the better and if it means anything to him like it does me it will work out in the end and well i slept a lil last night. still didnt eat but slept.
Meg is leaving earlier for college. fucking the 23rd of july. she wont be there for my party and we are going to vermont july 2-3 and i got to ask my mom and im scaried.
but i get to see them this weekend :) and hopefully the weekend after!
I miss Dani and Meg and Sue and Kristina, and Lauren, and Jenna and all them!!!!!!!!!
I need my friends. I need friends who dont live across the country! Zac is wonderful and he talked to me last night and he made me smile and Michelle made me feel X347357 better and jared reminded me there is hope.
there now you know how im feeling. alone, left out and yet i cant cry. i did it to myself. i made myself this way. im leaving you arent. its my fault im going to college.
<3
The thought of college sucks. Its ruining my life
I dont want to go!
No one will miss me! it doesnt matter anymore.
I should have seen Steve Bendal yesterday but i gave into something that isnt gonna last and i need steve ive need him for 4 years now and i hate myself soo much for that.
I want things to work out. but i thought to myself last night if it doesnt then well i guess it is for the better and if it means anything to him like it does me it will work out in the end and well i slept a lil last night. still didnt eat but slept.
Meg is leaving earlier for college. fucking the 23rd of july. she wont be there for my party and we are going to vermont july 2-3 and i got to ask my mom and im scaried.
but i get to see them this weekend :) and hopefully the weekend after!
I miss Dani and Meg and Sue and Kristina, and Lauren, and Jenna and all them!!!!!!!!!
I need my friends. I need friends who dont live across the country! Zac is wonderful and he talked to me last night and he made me smile and Michelle made me feel X347357 better and jared reminded me there is hope.
there now you know how im feeling. alone, left out and yet i cant cry. i did it to myself. i made myself this way. im leaving you arent. its my fault im going to college.
<3