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And then there was period 6 today.
Remedial Year 9/10 English.
I can't control them. They laughed in my face. They wouldn't stay in their chairs. They wouldn't do the work because "what's the point, you're gonna fail me anyway" or "I'm leaving school at the end of the year so i don't care".
I am angrier with myself than with them. I know what I SHOULD have done. I know the theory. The fact remains that I did not do what I should have done and I'm not sure why.
Anyway, I got back to the staff room, slammed my books down on my desk and then stood in the corner, facing the wall trying to compose myself. Everyone is very understanding and feels for me. they know these kids and they know how tough they can be. That's nice that they understand but it doesn't help me be a better teacher. I realised I don't just want to "get on with it". I want these kids to improve. I want to actually teach them rather than do the suggested chalk and talk because that's "all they're capable of". Big sigh.
Anyway, I've drunk a bottle of wine and I'm about to open the second.
It's been a big week!
Remedial Year 9/10 English.
I can't control them. They laughed in my face. They wouldn't stay in their chairs. They wouldn't do the work because "what's the point, you're gonna fail me anyway" or "I'm leaving school at the end of the year so i don't care".
I am angrier with myself than with them. I know what I SHOULD have done. I know the theory. The fact remains that I did not do what I should have done and I'm not sure why.
Anyway, I got back to the staff room, slammed my books down on my desk and then stood in the corner, facing the wall trying to compose myself. Everyone is very understanding and feels for me. they know these kids and they know how tough they can be. That's nice that they understand but it doesn't help me be a better teacher. I realised I don't just want to "get on with it". I want these kids to improve. I want to actually teach them rather than do the suggested chalk and talk because that's "all they're capable of". Big sigh.
Anyway, I've drunk a bottle of wine and I'm about to open the second.
It's been a big week!