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So, I will take a break from English to update my journal. I got my english paper on "Beowulf" back today. I got an H! That's my second H this year in english. I think that talking to my mom before doing the paper helps a lot.. She helps me sort out my thoughts. Anyway, I'm really happy about that. I don't get it though.. I have a V in that class.. but the only test grades I've gotten this term are H and H-. And I'm pretty sure I've done well on the quiz grades. Maybe it's class participation? Because I don't say one damn word during class ever.. It's just so much better to listen, really. Haha, it pisses him off, too. Dr. Young is awesome, though.
The day I got it back, we were assigned an "in-class essay". Only it's not really in class. It's more like a take home essay.. It's due at the end of class tomorrow. I would have been fine with it if he had told us about it. It's based partly on Grendel and partly on a letter John Gardner (the author) wrote to these students that misinterpreted his book. I'm supposed to prove, using Gardner's points, how Grendel is optimistic. Sounds easy.. but, I don't know.
My mom and I went out for coffee after school to talk about it. This girl, who looked 12 but turned out to be a senior in high school, I think, was talking with this guy. (Eavesdropping is fun, okay, if they're total strangers .. You know you do it.) Anyway, my mom could hear, too. They were talking about parties and being unconscious after/at the parties, alcohol poisoning, addiction to cigarettes, etc, so casually. Haha. Then some other guy met them and the girl asked him if he was stoned.. my mom heard all of this, I thought it was funny to see her reaction. I wonder if she thinks this is how all teenagers are, or if it's a shock to her. After coffee, we went to Randall's and we were talking about their conversation.. My mom said something about how she can understand how a little spontaneity and carelessness once in a while could be a good thing.. but how alcohol poisoning/drinking yourself unconscious at parties was just self-destruction . I agreed with her.. But then that led me to wonder, wait, what does she think about pot? I was tempted to ask her, but held back. My mother has never talked to me about drugs and alcohol, only sex. Maybe she trusts me in that field, but not the other? I wonder.
Hearing that, though, has made me less afraid of trying pot again. I've still never been high.. All I want to see is what the fuss is about. One of the main reasons I never did it was because I was scared of getting caught. I am that way about everything. I am not a risk taker, as much as I would -love- to be. I'm too damn scared. Getting caught is one of the worst emotional feelings, I think. Along with embarrassment and rejection.
I.. I don't know. I won't do anything stupid. Don't worry.
Not that anyone is worrying. :)
The day I got it back, we were assigned an "in-class essay". Only it's not really in class. It's more like a take home essay.. It's due at the end of class tomorrow. I would have been fine with it if he had told us about it. It's based partly on Grendel and partly on a letter John Gardner (the author) wrote to these students that misinterpreted his book. I'm supposed to prove, using Gardner's points, how Grendel is optimistic. Sounds easy.. but, I don't know.
My mom and I went out for coffee after school to talk about it. This girl, who looked 12 but turned out to be a senior in high school, I think, was talking with this guy. (Eavesdropping is fun, okay, if they're total strangers .. You know you do it.) Anyway, my mom could hear, too. They were talking about parties and being unconscious after/at the parties, alcohol poisoning, addiction to cigarettes, etc, so casually. Haha. Then some other guy met them and the girl asked him if he was stoned.. my mom heard all of this, I thought it was funny to see her reaction. I wonder if she thinks this is how all teenagers are, or if it's a shock to her. After coffee, we went to Randall's and we were talking about their conversation.. My mom said something about how she can understand how a little spontaneity and carelessness once in a while could be a good thing.. but how alcohol poisoning/drinking yourself unconscious at parties was just self-destruction . I agreed with her.. But then that led me to wonder, wait, what does she think about pot? I was tempted to ask her, but held back. My mother has never talked to me about drugs and alcohol, only sex. Maybe she trusts me in that field, but not the other? I wonder.
Hearing that, though, has made me less afraid of trying pot again. I've still never been high.. All I want to see is what the fuss is about. One of the main reasons I never did it was because I was scared of getting caught. I am that way about everything. I am not a risk taker, as much as I would -love- to be. I'm too damn scared. Getting caught is one of the worst emotional feelings, I think. Along with embarrassment and rejection.
I.. I don't know. I won't do anything stupid. Don't worry.
Not that anyone is worrying. :)