moments
it is such a long time since i last made an entry that actually shared my feelings and thoughts. i couldn't help but be part of those who have been reduced to one-liners that are sometimes a cause for confusion and misunderstanding due to it's lack of depth... to think at first, i didn't want to be one of them... it has to be a conscious decision for me i guess...
anyway... work is very tiring these days aside from the day to day work load which is normal, accompanied with lots of presentations here and there, lots of planning, and others. i want to spend more time with friends now more than ever.
I look forward to the next time....
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The following is a story... is it based on facts? or is it fiction? you decide.
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It's always a breath of fresh air when we talk. we have always kept in touch despite the distance. but whenever we're together it always put a smile on my face. you've always put up with my drama and my pseudo drama. i know that you'll always be there when things may turn out badly and be a shoulder to cry on.
I do appreciate your effort for cheering me up. you came up to me saying that i needed the time spent together badly just because you experienced the same thing before. i don't know how you figured that one out. am i that predictable now? haha. to think, we are not particularly close. we just hung out before, but not have the heart to heart talks we have now. it's a nice feeling. hope it lasts...
But then, things have changed. I hope you're doing okay. i remember those times we always talk about everything. We had a fight and dragged people in it. i didn't like what we'd become. we were spiteful of each other. it's a heated battle that divided everyone to choose between us. they said, "look at them[us]. i know they wouldn't fight." but we did and you know what, i want to regret what happened.... but at some point... i don't really care. i just don't.
We had a falling out. I cried so much. after that, i chose to close myself from everyone. up to this time, i don't share much with people. my personal problems, aside from it not being as saddening, i can live with it. we patched things up. hugged actually if i remember it correctly. we got back what we lost. at least i think so. when we talked finally after a few years, you said you were sorry... i said, what for? "sorry for being so cold all these years." you said. i was speechless. i didn't expect that from you. i hope all is well with you.
We eventually tried to make up for lost time. We talked about alot of things. And you said I was your friend. and you were proud of it. I guess that was the validation i needed. Sometimes, I feel so unappreciated for everything i do. You made my day. Thank you so much. For holding me in such regard that I couldn't see that others see in me. First time I think anyone was vocal about what they really feel about me. It's nice to know that though... It was a great way to end the day.
Is it about you? or you? What do you think?