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y do i feel like crying.. right now im so confused. i dont really no wats goin on and i dont really now how she feels. i feel like i want to say so much but then id be like "y are u crying bout it right?" i feel like we have been so close and i can honestly say that i LOvE being with her. She is beautiful, kind, when she smiles its like the heaven. when she smiles "i melt inside" right? does that sounds familiar.. is just that i dont no how she feels. shes one HUGE mystery and i havent figured it out. "lets b friends" she said so thats wat we are . frIeNds. wat does that mean in this situation. I mean i like her more than friends. "like" is that the word to use?!? im thinking no its not. im thinking thats "like" is such a simple word for a situation that i feel is not so simple. yet as i sit here and she just left im dying to no wat shes thinking. and im dying to think that im leaving for a month. i want to cry but b.c i dont no how feels i feel sooo wierd saying all this b.c i dont want to freak her out. and im feel like im juss rambling. tonight was so confusing and im juss so confused. i wish ... that she would just tell me how she feels. does she like me more than a friend. b.c if so than shit would be different. i would act different to whoever. i feel so close to her and to be honest closer to her than i kinda haev been to anyone really.. i can juss b watever. when we hang out for hours its seems like 10 mins. we get togther at like 7 and when i look at the clock its suddenly 12.. where did all that tymme go? it was because w. her, there is no tyme. its b.c with her i kinda juss loose everything, and im sorry i always have to leave. i am. and i no im going to regret it later on when "its lost" and you wat i dont want it to be gone or lost. when ppl are close.. it doesnt juss go away. it cant juss go away, but i dont no how u are. all i no it that it doesnt juss leave. when ppl leave for times it makes ppl closer bc they realize how they feel. they realize shit that they didnt no before. i no u probably dont want to hear this, but im gettin so confused and you no wat.. i.... why am i scared to say how i feel b.c i want to but i dont want to loose you . . . tonight was juss so confusing. y do i feel like my heart is breaking when were "only friends"... if we were only friends my heart would not feel like this and neither would yours. neither would yours.. .. i need to take a shower.. juss sweete please tell me SUMTHING!!!! no i feel stupid ..