I blame credit cards
Well it seems my almost constant hate and anger towards CVS and those that work with me is showing. I've been called in the office several times in the past week to 'talk' about why I seemed to not care. In reality it's not that I don't care all the time.. It's that I've given up being on a constant sugar high at work. So instead of having sugar to keep me happy, I am seeing everything clearly, feeling everything. I also hate to say it's some of the small things that make me angry now. I tend to be the employee that changes, switches, and works those 6 days most being 9 hours. I am the main ringer and photo tech same time. I stopped asking about my breaks much. When there is only me and a manager I willingly wait for someone else to come in. (Usually around 2-4 so it is a long time till I get to go on break) and just ask that they ring me up soon so I don't pass out or anything.. It's when they forget me, and I don't get rung up till 2:30 when someone comes in, or one of the times I do want to take my break a little early (we had 2 other people in at the time, and I had been in for 4 hours) I am told it's too early. Or the fact that since we got our new assistant manager. Since is is stand in photo sup. he likes to tell me every little thing I do wrong. Training he says, but people, there is only so many times I can stand hearing something is my fault when it isn't. It's as bad really as the last photo sup stand in who yelled at me all the time, and really did blame me for every problem. Or even when he runs outside to smoke or do god knows what, is gone forever, while it is only me and him in the store, then comes in like it's nothing that there is a huge line, me going crazy calling him or someone needing his card, or his keys. And even when he's not outside he takes the longest time getting to the front!
Valentines day is a great example. One of the always recorded busiest days of the year with all the last minute shoppers. Soo what does he decide to do, go behind the store to take a call from someone.. He gets locked out while he's talking. So for about an hour I have a line literally starting to wrap around the aisles, me being the ONLY other person besides pharmacy. I was way beyond panic to the point where I was sobbing my eyes out for a good long time while I rang the never ending, still growing line. I only thank the lord that every customer was very nice that day. I think I would have fully lost it if someone was mean with me that day. So he finally waltzes in.. At least he was smart enough to take over ringing completely while I hid myself behind the photo lab.
And then there is stuff like tonight... There was a meeting scheduled, and just as it was to start the newest shift broke the computer in the office, which put all our terminals down. So I'm in the front with broken terminals. This is the kind where you have to run to check the price of over half the customers stuff, get yelled at because we couldn't take debit or credit, and generally just run yourself ragged. 3 hours it was down. So while everyone but me and one manager was in the pharmacy for the meeting, eating pizza, me and my manager were running ragged. So finally the tech comes to fix it and I ask for a break. I am told to only take about 15 min. I'm very annoyed at this.. This was coming from the shift that broke the computer, and just spent the past hour in the back at the meeting. So I take only 15.. and my other co worker gets to go on a 15 too.. When he had been in the back sitting for like an hour and a half.
Nobody in my store cares to help others in the store. My back-up takes 5-10 minutes to get the the front. So I hear all the time "you have 3 people call for back up!" Well people.. The line is gone before my back-up ever arrives.. I can have a line out the door, and they will ignore me unless I literally tell them to open. Then they get all pissy.. Or when I'm doing a passport photo they run away every chance. I finally flat out told them to stay there, because I will keep calling them up every customer.
And they all wonder why I stopped caring, why I stopped liking my job. They wonder why I am almost always sad or angry. Honestly. I used to love working at CVS, I used to love it.. I used to love photo lab, I used to never really care that it was only me. But now.. I find thoughts like "if I drink an entire bottle of sleeping meds, I won't have to go to work tomorrow" I never had thoughts like that till recently.. I know I should quit, I know I should, but stupid me has 4 credit cards to pay off, and sadly with my level of education I wonThanks CVS your making me go crazy...