okay...she isn't the one
well...the chick dissed me so its not all good between me and her anymore. But fuck all that, i knew it wasn't my fault she dissed me, cuz i was totally being a gentleman. I guess now im sick of being a hopeless romantic. Right now i just need some self discipline, i hate being so laid back about things. I mean yeah, I'm more serious...but i need to try harder with everything. I just feel like whatever i think is good...is now not good enough. I demand more out of myself now more than ever. I don't need a woman to complete me, all i need is myself to get through this. Maybe it will never be enough for me...who knows. All i do know is that the life i have been leading has been an undetermined one. and im not afraid to say I'm not doing enough. I don't wanna be worried about girls, i don't wanna be lazy, i just don't wanna be my old self. I do believe change is necessary at this point...