Abandonment Issues
heh..araw-arawin mo ba naman...nakakapagod na...o kailangan ko lang ata lumayo sa lahat ng 'ito'
Oo nga pasensya ka na,bambuhin mo nalang ako ng pala sa may pugon kapag lumabas pa, ayaw ko na rin talaga pramis, kaso ewan ko ba ambigat nito sa akin, kaya naiisip ko...
I Have Abandonment Issues
Its not really about "it" anymore, everytime an abandonment of any kind occurs to me, i have a heavy feeling,a mixture of self-pity,sense of vengeance,sadness,bouts of anger & Sudden Mood Swings. I woke up in a family which was very very close to each other and i blinked, after that everyone started to change for the worse, i know change is one of the few constants but dont they have a choice, for better or worse? I ask why,how,when, still no response,i had to find out for myself, and end up finding it wrapped in razor blades..these are the following beliefs that i have been carrying allmy life:
*I believe the people I love will soon perish.
*People close to me will abandon me.
*Important relationships never last.
*People will leave me if I say what's on my mind.
*I worry about losing people close to me.
*People close to me are unpredictible--I never know when they might become angry or self-absorbed.
*It's hard getting close to others--I never know when people might go.
*Nobody can love me long.
*I'm meant to be dropped.
*I fear important people in my life might leave me for someone else.
*People come and go in my life.
*I can't get close to others because I don't know when they might leave.
*I get desperate when others pull away from me.
*My fearful clinging drives people away.
*I deserve to be dropped.
*I feel desperate and alone when others let me go.
Hehe May makikita kau jan na magreremind sa inyo ng mga tao hehe..
I end up being redundant when something like these turn up..Siguro kung tunog lang to,malamang duguan na tenga nyo..I can seem to pull away..
I dont know maybe im the one digging up the dirt,maybe its me to blame but even if imanage to control it, the outcome feels the same..
Di mo na kailangan lumayo pare,i'll try twice as hard to contain this,my insanity and depression is bothering you and this is no longer your battle,i should be more considerate, i dont want to bother anyone anymore...Again, I Apologize...
Oo nga pasensya ka na,bambuhin mo nalang ako ng pala sa may pugon kapag lumabas pa, ayaw ko na rin talaga pramis, kaso ewan ko ba ambigat nito sa akin, kaya naiisip ko...
I Have Abandonment Issues
Its not really about "it" anymore, everytime an abandonment of any kind occurs to me, i have a heavy feeling,a mixture of self-pity,sense of vengeance,sadness,bouts of anger & Sudden Mood Swings. I woke up in a family which was very very close to each other and i blinked, after that everyone started to change for the worse, i know change is one of the few constants but dont they have a choice, for better or worse? I ask why,how,when, still no response,i had to find out for myself, and end up finding it wrapped in razor blades..these are the following beliefs that i have been carrying allmy life:
*I believe the people I love will soon perish.
*People close to me will abandon me.
*Important relationships never last.
*People will leave me if I say what's on my mind.
*I worry about losing people close to me.
*People close to me are unpredictible--I never know when they might become angry or self-absorbed.
*It's hard getting close to others--I never know when people might go.
*Nobody can love me long.
*I'm meant to be dropped.
*I fear important people in my life might leave me for someone else.
*People come and go in my life.
*I can't get close to others because I don't know when they might leave.
*I get desperate when others pull away from me.
*My fearful clinging drives people away.
*I deserve to be dropped.
*I feel desperate and alone when others let me go.
Hehe May makikita kau jan na magreremind sa inyo ng mga tao hehe..
I end up being redundant when something like these turn up..Siguro kung tunog lang to,malamang duguan na tenga nyo..I can seem to pull away..
I dont know maybe im the one digging up the dirt,maybe its me to blame but even if imanage to control it, the outcome feels the same..
Di mo na kailangan lumayo pare,i'll try twice as hard to contain this,my insanity and depression is bothering you and this is no longer your battle,i should be more considerate, i dont want to bother anyone anymore...Again, I Apologize...