Im getting impatient God......
Everyday i get very impatient of what this attempt into getting into a relationship with a girl that is not entirely sure if she will love me back...This is very immature but 9 years of failed relationships doesn't give positive reinforecements..Fuck..what's holding me back is just the love i have for this girl...damn why..jerkoffs get girls almost every time with their very cheesy lines..Just meaning i have negative(-) 100 charisma...i mean why??? people tell me, "your girlfriend is gonna be lucky, your such a nice guy" how lucky? yeah they're right, i have been any girl's toy every time i fall in love, i become a pawn...wow they're getting mega kills from me...I'll be hanging on..maybe til this sem..we've known each other for more than a year..where will this go? ask me in 3 months...I only have Hope...maybe instead of giving me charisma,God gave me that...I dunno if its a gift or God's warped sense of humor