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Well aren't I the biggest idiot in the whole world? I am so unimportant that I get dropped for something that I didnt do. Guess it was because I didnt put out. I feel disgusting about everything I did. He probably was picturing me as a Katie the whole time ;)
I guess that me being used by him is always the case. I was serious about everything I said to him. Its a funny pattern. Him being a douchebag a month straight, than him being nice for 5 days, while at the same time begging me to have sex with him. Too bad you couldn't pretend you were having sex with other girls, at least not this time.
I can't believe that shit. When I found out I cried and freaked out so hard that my mom came upstairs. I bet that feels good to read, me crying over you.
It always does.
I missed everything alot, and this was just like one big awful tease that ended in my heart getting shit on. In all honesty, its hard to know if he ever loved me for sure. First he loved Vanessa while we were dating, then he like asked out Katherine and now its Katie and in between them, the other Catherine. Fuck, who even knows?
I think maybe sometimes he loves me, and sometimes he can't. He holds himself higher then everybody else, yet he doesnt care about himself really, at all. I dont know why he couldnt just love me this whole time, or not love me at all. I dont know why. I bet he doesnt know why either. I bet its scary feeling like that.
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I guess that me being used by him is always the case. I was serious about everything I said to him. Its a funny pattern. Him being a douchebag a month straight, than him being nice for 5 days, while at the same time begging me to have sex with him. Too bad you couldn't pretend you were having sex with other girls, at least not this time.
I can't believe that shit. When I found out I cried and freaked out so hard that my mom came upstairs. I bet that feels good to read, me crying over you.
It always does.
I missed everything alot, and this was just like one big awful tease that ended in my heart getting shit on. In all honesty, its hard to know if he ever loved me for sure. First he loved Vanessa while we were dating, then he like asked out Katherine and now its Katie and in between them, the other Catherine. Fuck, who even knows?
I think maybe sometimes he loves me, and sometimes he can't. He holds himself higher then everybody else, yet he doesnt care about himself really, at all. I dont know why he couldnt just love me this whole time, or not love me at all. I dont know why. I bet he doesnt know why either. I bet its scary feeling like that.
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