Being a human in a world of vampires is about as safe as barebacking a five dollar whore...
Okay, it's been awhile since I've updated, and I'm kinda buzzed, so try to bare with me. Tonight was my birthday... Well actually, my birthday is still 11 days away, but tonight we went ahead and celebrated it. There were a variety of reasons for celebrating it early, including some friends who were visiting all the way from Arizona, and also, because Stephen will be at the con on the 24th. Well, it was definitely fun. I basically had a pretty freaking awesome day.
We didn't really do much, but still it was kind of perfect. Me and Stephen slept in (Which was amazingly wonderful) had a bit of fun (You can prolly guess what kind) and then we cleaned up, picked up around the house a bit, ran some errands, and watched Dr. Who. All in all the day went pretty damn well, and made me realize just how amazingly lucky I am. You see, I have a really sweet, sexy, funny, smart, boyfriend who for some reason thinks I'm worth all the trouble I create. Then after spending the day relaxing, and chilling, my actual birthday party began.
Again, nothing really amazing, not some wild crazy party. Just a few friends hanging out. We didn't even really do anything. No games, or anything like that. I kinda wish we had, but really I'm not going to complain. I really enjoyed just being able to relax. I've been so stressed recently about money, my job, what I want to do for my future, etc, that it was really nice to just chill and not do anything. I did drink quite a bit, and ate quite a bit, which although bad for me is prolly good, since tomorrow I began my self imposed improvement.
You see, I need to lose weight. I'm a bit of a fat ass. So, I'm going to start eating less, and making sure what I eat is a little more healthy. I'm also going to try and start exercising. It's going to be hard to find the time to do so, when I already feel like I don't have enough time to do the things I want to, but I really need to make the time. I need to take better care of myself. That also includes preventing myself from getting so stressed out.
I don't know why, but I let work, stupid little insecurities about myself, money problems, etc really stress me out, and it just builds up really badly and I just feel sick sometimes. Part of it is I'm still coming out of the holidays, plus I have all the extra work at work now that I'm running the other store.... But bleh.. I really need to figure some way to stop being so stressed out and maybe be a wee bit more self confident. I've been trying harder to be more confident, but it's hard sometimes... Especially when I cant' stop stressing...
Recently my biggest stress, other then money, has just been trying to figure out what the hell I want to do with my life. As I told my dad during my recent Holiday in Arizona, I have the who. (I want to spend the rest of my life with Stephen and I will eventually con him into marrying me) I have the where (I really like Seattle, and want to eventually get a house here, even if it will be awhile before we can afford one) now I just need to figure out the what. (I have a job, not a career, and I really need to find something that pays more the 32,000 a year if I want to get a house)
The problem is that "what" question is a bit trickier then the other two. I some how doubt I'm just going to accidentally stumble into a job that pays at least 42,000 a year by chance. Also, another big hurdle is that I don't really know what I want to do. Most good paying jobs are going to require a bit of schooling before I can jump in, and before I start school (Trade or college) I want to have a good idea of what I am going to school for. So really I'm just kind of at a loss. (Any suggestions would be wonderful)
So yeah. Tomorrow I begin the exercise and diet thing. Also need to really start searching hard for what the heck I want to do with my life. I'm 25, I should at least have some sort of career goal by now. *Sighs*
But yeah, I had a good day. So thank you to Stephen (My sexy, smart, wonderful, dp capable, charming, witty, country loving, sarcastic, sweet, funny boyfriend) to Whitney, and Cristi (Thank you guys for coming up to Seattle, and thank you guys for coming over and hanging out, also, thank you Whitney for the cd, I'm going to listen to it tomorrow while I run some errands. I'm sure it will be awesome.) Derek and Ashleigh (Thanks for all the awesome blu-rays, and thank you for coming. Hopefully you guys both know that I think you are awesome and that I would take a bullet for both of you... well at least for Ashleigh...Did I mention I am still kind of buzzed?) Finally Craig and Jason (Thank you guys for the alcohol, the shot glasses, and the lesson in floating, also thank you guys for coming over, it's always nice to hang out with you and I am really glad me and Stephen met you. You have been awesome new friends, and I hope to be friends with you guys for a long time...)
So yeah... That is it, also, it may be the alcohol, but I have a weird desire to post to sys. If I still feel this way tomorrow maybe I can get Stephen to take some pictures for me. Who knows, seeing those kinds of pics of me may be a good motivator in my weight loss goals. Lol.
Finally in closing Doctor 9 was the shit and I miss him, oh and a bit of priceless wisdom from the once great William Dafoe
"Being human in a world full of vampires is about as safe as barebacking a five dollar whore."
We didn't really do much, but still it was kind of perfect. Me and Stephen slept in (Which was amazingly wonderful) had a bit of fun (You can prolly guess what kind) and then we cleaned up, picked up around the house a bit, ran some errands, and watched Dr. Who. All in all the day went pretty damn well, and made me realize just how amazingly lucky I am. You see, I have a really sweet, sexy, funny, smart, boyfriend who for some reason thinks I'm worth all the trouble I create. Then after spending the day relaxing, and chilling, my actual birthday party began.
Again, nothing really amazing, not some wild crazy party. Just a few friends hanging out. We didn't even really do anything. No games, or anything like that. I kinda wish we had, but really I'm not going to complain. I really enjoyed just being able to relax. I've been so stressed recently about money, my job, what I want to do for my future, etc, that it was really nice to just chill and not do anything. I did drink quite a bit, and ate quite a bit, which although bad for me is prolly good, since tomorrow I began my self imposed improvement.
You see, I need to lose weight. I'm a bit of a fat ass. So, I'm going to start eating less, and making sure what I eat is a little more healthy. I'm also going to try and start exercising. It's going to be hard to find the time to do so, when I already feel like I don't have enough time to do the things I want to, but I really need to make the time. I need to take better care of myself. That also includes preventing myself from getting so stressed out.
I don't know why, but I let work, stupid little insecurities about myself, money problems, etc really stress me out, and it just builds up really badly and I just feel sick sometimes. Part of it is I'm still coming out of the holidays, plus I have all the extra work at work now that I'm running the other store.... But bleh.. I really need to figure some way to stop being so stressed out and maybe be a wee bit more self confident. I've been trying harder to be more confident, but it's hard sometimes... Especially when I cant' stop stressing...
Recently my biggest stress, other then money, has just been trying to figure out what the hell I want to do with my life. As I told my dad during my recent Holiday in Arizona, I have the who. (I want to spend the rest of my life with Stephen and I will eventually con him into marrying me) I have the where (I really like Seattle, and want to eventually get a house here, even if it will be awhile before we can afford one) now I just need to figure out the what. (I have a job, not a career, and I really need to find something that pays more the 32,000 a year if I want to get a house)
The problem is that "what" question is a bit trickier then the other two. I some how doubt I'm just going to accidentally stumble into a job that pays at least 42,000 a year by chance. Also, another big hurdle is that I don't really know what I want to do. Most good paying jobs are going to require a bit of schooling before I can jump in, and before I start school (Trade or college) I want to have a good idea of what I am going to school for. So really I'm just kind of at a loss. (Any suggestions would be wonderful)
So yeah. Tomorrow I begin the exercise and diet thing. Also need to really start searching hard for what the heck I want to do with my life. I'm 25, I should at least have some sort of career goal by now. *Sighs*
But yeah, I had a good day. So thank you to Stephen (My sexy, smart, wonderful, dp capable, charming, witty, country loving, sarcastic, sweet, funny boyfriend) to Whitney, and Cristi (Thank you guys for coming up to Seattle, and thank you guys for coming over and hanging out, also, thank you Whitney for the cd, I'm going to listen to it tomorrow while I run some errands. I'm sure it will be awesome.) Derek and Ashleigh (Thanks for all the awesome blu-rays, and thank you for coming. Hopefully you guys both know that I think you are awesome and that I would take a bullet for both of you... well at least for Ashleigh...Did I mention I am still kind of buzzed?) Finally Craig and Jason (Thank you guys for the alcohol, the shot glasses, and the lesson in floating, also thank you guys for coming over, it's always nice to hang out with you and I am really glad me and Stephen met you. You have been awesome new friends, and I hope to be friends with you guys for a long time...)
So yeah... That is it, also, it may be the alcohol, but I have a weird desire to post to sys. If I still feel this way tomorrow maybe I can get Stephen to take some pictures for me. Who knows, seeing those kinds of pics of me may be a good motivator in my weight loss goals. Lol.
Finally in closing Doctor 9 was the shit and I miss him, oh and a bit of priceless wisdom from the once great William Dafoe
"Being human in a world full of vampires is about as safe as barebacking a five dollar whore."