Emo Ninja ASS!

Dec 02, 2009 22:47

Okay, it's kind of been awhile since I've posted anything on here, so here is a few general updates, and as usual (It is an LJ after all) some of the emo stuff I've been thinking about.

First off, I went and saw Ninja Assassin tonight. I have actually been bugging Stephen to go see it since it came out, because for some reason I really wanted to see it in theaters. I went in knowing it was going to be really cheesy and retarded, but I still really wanted to see it. Maybe it's the 7 year old kid in me, but something about retarded action and horror movies just really makes me happy. Don't get me wrong, my favorite films are all still really in depth movies that explore interesting and complex themes (Pleasantville, Far From Heaven, Gods and Monsters etc) but come on, it's a Ninja and he kills other Ninjas. Lol. How can you not just turn your brain off and enjoy the bad cgi carnage? Really it kinda was nice and let me relax a little. (Oh and Cristy was totally right Rain is a hottie. Especially when covered in fake blood.)

But yeah, Ninja ASS aside, I've been kind of stressed recently, and I know it's all retarded stuff to stress about, but I just can't get over it. First, next month I turn 25, and I'm really not looking forward to it. My mom always said she would give me till my 25th birthday to figure out what I want to do with my life, before she would start hounding me, and I've recently been realizing, I really don't know what I want to do with my life. I have a mediocre retail job that doesn't pay very much, and I really have no ambitions or goals. There was a time in my life where I felt like I could do whatever I wanted, now, I don't feel like I'm qualified to do much of anything. All the things I love, movies, comic books, video games, etc are not exactly great career paths (Being a movie director, or comic book writer aren't realistic goals) and honestly I would really have to go to school, if I want to ever make more money then I am making now. If I do decide to go to school, what should I go to school for? What do I want to spend the rest of my life doing? *Sighs* So I'm kinda just trying to think of things I would actually be good at, that I wouldn't mind doing for the rest of my life, and so far I'm coming up short. Any suggestions?

2nd, I realized I'm way too codependent. Although I lived in Flagstaff for a year without Stephen not too long ago, I'm kinda bugging out cause I will be without him for two separate weeks next month. The first week of January I am going to go visit family in Arizona, and then shortly after I get back he is going to be spending the weekend of my birthday at FC. Both are really good things. It will be nice to see my sis. I've been worried about her since she was shipped off to Iraq, and I am sure Stephen will have a lot of fun at the con, it just makes me sad knowing I have to go without him. I will have to find some video games to play or a big drawing project to keep me busy while he is gone. But yeah... I've just been kinda Emo about both of these things.

Plus I'm worrying about money as usual. I'm still trying to find Christmas presents for people, and doing so on kind of a tight budget this year, which is not fun. Living in Seattle is awesome, but it's a lot more expensive here then it is in AZ. But yeah... It's definitely worth the extra cost though. I do love it here. The city is awesome. There is soooo much more culture, and all kinds of cool things to do. Plus we've made some pretty cool new friends since moving here. All in all I think it's definitely worth the costs.

But yeah, I think that is all the whining I need to do. At least for a little while. Lol. Honestly though, even though work sucks, and I don't know what I'm going to do about my future, looking at my life things are pretty good. I have a sexy wonderful boyfriend whom I love, and we just celebrated our 3-5 year anniversary. Lol. Honestly our relationship is really going well. We are really good for each other, and I think we compliment each other well. I also think I'm finally coming to terms with the "open" part of our relationship (Although FC will be the true test of how well I can deal with it) I also have some really cool friends. We've been hanging out at Derek and Ashleigh's regularly to play through the new Super Mario Bros. on Wii, and we've really had a lot of fun. They are both really awesome, and I'm so glad they followed us from AZ. In addition all of our new friends are pretty awesome as well. I never thought I'd be much of a club or party type guy, but despite the techno music (Which I will always hate) hanging out at gay bars and clubs can actually be a lot of fun, plus I finally had my first real hangover. Lol. And also, in addition to making the best Sangria in the world, in Craig, I've found a movie buff whose knowledge sometimes exceeds my own. An exciting and scary thing really. Lol. So yeah. Life is pretty good.

Oh and speaking of life being good, I'm really looking forward to three movies right now. Avatar, Sherlock Holmes, and Wolf Man, but I will talk more about those at another time, because I have a sexy boyfriend wearing his new boxer briefs in the other room, and I need to go try and convince him to take them off.
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