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It was just one of those days where I think through the things that I said, the thoughts that I have had and realise what a terrible person I am. So many times, I feel like I don't really want people to get to know that side of me, possibly the 'real' me that is so selfish and proud.
Going to New Word Alive really showed me how proud and selfish I actually am and how quick I judge people to the point of condemnation. I did resolve to change; but just yesterday night, it was quickly made known to me how hard and how arduous it would be to grow and change from the self-love attitude ingrained into me. And at that time, it's so easy to just get frustrated with myself and try to ignore everything else. To push everything else out of my mind and just bury myself in the work that should be completed.
It's a moment by moment decision to love others and put their interests before my own. All I can do now is just pray that God would give me the strength to choose to love others, to have faith that in everything, He is faithful.
Back to studying.
Going to New Word Alive really showed me how proud and selfish I actually am and how quick I judge people to the point of condemnation. I did resolve to change; but just yesterday night, it was quickly made known to me how hard and how arduous it would be to grow and change from the self-love attitude ingrained into me. And at that time, it's so easy to just get frustrated with myself and try to ignore everything else. To push everything else out of my mind and just bury myself in the work that should be completed.
It's a moment by moment decision to love others and put their interests before my own. All I can do now is just pray that God would give me the strength to choose to love others, to have faith that in everything, He is faithful.
Back to studying.