The suspense is terrible . . . I hope it'll last.

[j_standy]

I haven't updated in a very long time. Me so sorry. I almost forgot about my detatched from reality journal full of all the things I feel I can say aloud. But, without further a do, here I go.

I have mono. It hasnt fully kicked in yet, thankfully. I just hope it waits until after my junior rhinos tryouts. Those are next week, for 2 weeks. They are probably the most important two weeks I'll ever play of soccer. I don't know if I will make the team though. I'm very, very nervous.

I've seen a lot of good movies lately. Requiem for a Dream is one of my new favorites. Kids was very... good even though it was quite fucked. The Life Aquatic is a very strange surreal movie that I liked a lot. Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory was hilarious. Johnny Depp is a great actor, hurray for him! Dark Water was bad.

I think I'm going to Maine in a few weeks, for 5 days or so. In Maine I will find myself again, just like last year. I love it up there. Anyone who wants to join me is more than welcome. It will cost nothing, except if you want to buy lobster :)

If the stars
Would just stop spinning
I could tell
You how my heart aches
If the stars
Would just stop spinning
I could show
You how much I care

I hope karma is real
I hope eventually you’ll think
Of me like I do you
And I hope our fates will be sealed
This hope is real..

So real..

Get control
Remember you told
Me that you
Are my best friend now
Get control
Remember I told
You that I
Am your lover now

If only karma were real
If only you, loved me
As much as I hope to believe
And I need to believe
My hope’s so real..

So real..
So real..
So real..