Spin me around..

[j_standy]

I walked outside onto my porch. I sat in an ugly chair I have on my porch. I looked at all the houses around me. What is going on inside them? I heard my air conditioner from my room, it was loud. I could also hear the dripping noise coming from it that those air conditioners produce. What causes that sound? Why are my Christmas lights still up? It's June. A car drove by going very fast. The roads were slick and that was dangerous on a narrow street like the one I live on. I wonder who was in the car. I wonder why they were in such a hurry. Why are people always in such a hurry? Why can’t we just enjoy the time we have? The time we have is so valuable. So valuable. Valuable.

I don't tell my mom and my grandma I love them. I haven't said those words to them in a very long time to them. What the fuck is wrong with me? How can I be so ignorant and disrespecting to the two people who care about me the most?..