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ahh...new job starts in 6 hours. I supposed to be waking up in 4. however, my cunt of a room mate decided to sleep all day(yelled @ me at 6 to turn down my music) and then come 1 am blasted the TV while she cleaned her room. And now thats shes woken me up(40 minutes ago) I cant get back to sleep. So now im on LJ writing about it. I work @ a graveyard, doing grounds maintenance. Not quite sure what that is, but ill find out soon enough. I think mowing the grass, laying sod, picking up flowers and trimming hedges. Dont know if I get to dig/fill holes yet, that may involve a miniature back hoe, which im not trained to use.
Last night went to a club, obviously Madeline was there(see a few posts down the page)and she came over to me to chat, and then asked me some questions, which I thought was really weird. like who of the girls next to me did I like, and then she told me who I liked out of that group, which she got right. And then tried to get me drunk, but I said no, and she wanted to know how I pull girls, which I responded that I dont, and she was confused by this...anyways the point is, if she can pick up Im digging this girl in 2 minutes, she surely knows I dig her. Even more reason to keep my guard up while Im around her because I CANT let anything happen on any remote level, nto that it would because shes the sweet type of girl who would never cheat, so shes not tempted, I know to stay away, and tho I like her, there is no chane of anything happening, which is good.
and after a couple months of what I consider to be an honest effort, im entirely giving up on adrienne. she said she wanted to be friends, I think I tried my part, got nothing back from it, and now the cow can go fuck herself.Friends->lovers->attempted friendship->fucking done with. If she cant even have the courtesy to return multiple phone calls or emails, then I should be glad shes out of my life. And on some levels I think I am, but its still hard because I cared for her so much.
Last night went to a club, obviously Madeline was there(see a few posts down the page)and she came over to me to chat, and then asked me some questions, which I thought was really weird. like who of the girls next to me did I like, and then she told me who I liked out of that group, which she got right. And then tried to get me drunk, but I said no, and she wanted to know how I pull girls, which I responded that I dont, and she was confused by this...anyways the point is, if she can pick up Im digging this girl in 2 minutes, she surely knows I dig her. Even more reason to keep my guard up while Im around her because I CANT let anything happen on any remote level, nto that it would because shes the sweet type of girl who would never cheat, so shes not tempted, I know to stay away, and tho I like her, there is no chane of anything happening, which is good.
and after a couple months of what I consider to be an honest effort, im entirely giving up on adrienne. she said she wanted to be friends, I think I tried my part, got nothing back from it, and now the cow can go fuck herself.Friends->lovers->attempted friendship->fucking done with. If she cant even have the courtesy to return multiple phone calls or emails, then I should be glad shes out of my life. And on some levels I think I am, but its still hard because I cared for her so much.